New Year's Eve

I've decided on making a Resolutions for the New Year...
It's not final...
but here it is...

Sarah's Resolution for the Year 2010

• Study Hard!!
• Listen in Class
• Finish my Homeworks!!
• Practice Piano/Violin more often!
  
• Peel myself away from my laptop!
  
• Try to sleep Early
• Not Sleep in Class
  
• Diet!!
• Be More Responsible
• Stop Wasting Money!

okay so I only got 10 now...
shall add more when I think of more!
wish me luck!!

-xoxo-

fighting with myself...
hating that i feel like that...
and towards that guy of all people... ><

emily

Happii Birthday Em...
It's your sweet sixteen...
live it...love it...
enjoy it...
spend your sixteenth year fulfillingly...loves

30/12/09
I bought drinks for guys for the first time in my life...==
and it had to be starbucks...==

Tagged by emily

HONEST SECTION

Honestly, what color is your underwear?:

White with Pink Polka dots...=p

Honestly, whats on your mind?

Everything...ughh horrible things...

Honestly, what are you doing right now?

Listening to music texting Faceboking and doing this tag...

Honestly, have you done something bad today?

Yes..!!

Honestly, do you watch Disney channel?

yes...when dere's nothing to watch...

Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?

Mommiieeee

Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?

yup

Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?

Life...

Honestly, do you bite your nails?

Haha yes...very very bad habit

Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?

Yes...and I hate myself for it...

Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?

yeah...

Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like?

yes...

Honestly, does anyone like you?

hahaha...I don't know if it counts...

CAN SECTION

Can you blow a bubble?

Lol...I guess??

Can you dance?:

nope...am a bod mover...only move d body...don't actually dance...xD

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?

err I don't know...I don't eat cherries...but anyways I don't think so...

Can you touch your toes?:

yupperss

Can you whistle?:

yup yup yup

Can you wiggle your ears?

err...no??

Can you wiggle your nose?:

lols noh...

Can you roll your tongue?:

yayayaya

Can you make a clover with your tongue?

huh?? wad??

ANGER SECTION

What do you do when you’re mad?

Yell, complain to my friends...listen to music...cry...or ignore it...

What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?

Threw my phone...><

TEAR SECTION

Ever really cried your heart out?

yeah...

Ever cried yourself to sleep?

yea

Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?

Yea

Ever cried over the same sex?

yes...mom counts rite??...><

HAPPY SECTION

Are you usually a happy person?

yes...

What makes you the happiest?

when I see people I love or people that love me happy...^^

Does being with your friends make you happy?

yes...most of the time...

Do you believe in yourself?

I do...sometimes...

Do you wish you were happier?

yea...always

Is being happy overrated?

lol..noooooo

Can music make you happy?

it makes me feel better...does that count??

LOVE SECTION

How many times have you had your heart broken?

3 times...others don't count...coz I try not to fall in too deep...

Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them?

nope...never never...No wait...I love me...I'd die for me!...xDD

Has anyone besides your friends/family ever said ‘I love you’ to you?

yea...my friends...and a bunch of bullshitters...><

HATE SECTION

Do you actually hate anyone?

no...

Ever made a hit list?

Noooo

Have you ever been on a hit list?

I don't think sooo...

Are you a mean bully?

YES!!! hahaha...I make lil kids cry...lols jkin...or am i??...lol

SELF-ESTEEM SECTION

Is your self-esteem extremely low?

I don't know...I think it's high enough...but maybe not...

Are you good looking?

I wish...

Do you wish you could be someone else?

nope...I just want their body...their life...and their owh wait...I guess thts a yes...

PHYSICAL SECTION

What is your current hair color?

Brownish Black...

Current piercings

Ear

Have any tattoos?

Nohh...I want one on my wrist!!

Straight hair or curly?

wavy??

What shirt are you wearing?

White 101 Dalmations Tee

Pants

Grey Boxer Shorts

Shoes

none...

HAVE YOU EVER SECTION

Hugged someone

Yes

Been on the phone until the sun came up?

Yes

Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?:

nohhh

Laughed so hard you cried?:

yesss

Got in a fight with someone?:

a bitch fight!...lol no...

LASTS SECTION

Person you talked to in person:

Mom

Person you talked to online

Jianny

Person you hugged:

Emily

Person you kissed

cheek= cam
head=jewelz!
lips= secret...=x

RANDOM SECTION

Do you like surveys?

depends on the surveys

Do you get along with your parents?

yes

Do you have mental breakdowns?

Yup

CURRENT SECTION

Current mood:

Horrible

Current Music:

Who's Have Known-Lily Allen

Current crush

=X not saying X=

Current thing I ought to be doing

Studying or sleeping...><

DID SECTION

Did you ever get into a fist fight in school?

nop

Did you ever run away from home?

nahhh...thought abt it tho...

Did you ever want to be a doctor?

nope...veterinarian count??

Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?

Gawd no.

LASTS SECTION AGAIN

Last person you hung out with?

Friends...Emily's Party

Last thing someone said to you?

It's the PMS talking

Last time you slept in all morning?

umm err early this month??

Last thing you said out loud:

owwww my feeetttt!!!!!

WHAT SECTION

What are you listening to?

Katy Perry-Thinking Of you

What is the weather outside?

Dark Creepy...

What radio station do you listen to?

Hitz, Mix, Fly

What was the last restaurant you ate at?

Shabu One...I think tht's wad it's called...

What was the last thing you had to drink?

Reverse Osmosis Water...><

WHO SECTION

Who is your newest friend you added to Facebook?

Tan something something...><

Who was the last person you texted

Charles Woon

Who was the last person you took pictures of?

Jewelz...lol not exactly a who...hehe

26-29/12/09

No pictures again...I'm shoooo lazyy

26/12/09
- Went to gym in the morning...
I forgot to bring my scrunchie...
So was sooooo hot...
I just hate my hair that day...
So decided to chop it off...
super short now...
feels light...and i kinda like it...^^

27/12/09
- Went to TAIC with my aunt...
Saw a super cute white guy!!
couldn't help checking him out...xD
he was absolutely perfect...
the face of a god and he's not too tall...^^
but anyways I found out his name and lost interest...lol
total turn off...><
-Went to one of TAIC member's house for a Christmas Party...
awesome food...cute fun...and well super awesome house...
-Went to McDs with my cousin and her friends...

28/12/09
-2nd Kickboxing class with Rocky (my trainer)
was fun...scratched my own eye when i was fooling around...aiikss
-Had Japanese food with mom and aunt at Daidomon, Great Eastern Mall...
-Got someone to fix our internet...
The guy was reeaaaaaaaaaally cute...heheeeee
and well it obviously works now...the internet tht is...lol

29/12/09 (today)
-woke up at 12.41 when i was supposed to wake up and wake my sis up at 11...lol (my sis ended up waking my up...lols)
-got ready and was done by 1 sumthin almost 2??...
left the house...midvalley...
traffic was crazy as usual since we live in KL...ughhhh...
Reached the Gardens at around 3.15-3.30??...
Karaoke in Red Box...only 2 of us...
until 7...den went to Bangsar to my my sis's friend up...
went to Bangsar Village and ate Nando's...
(sorrii mommiie...didn't eat with u like we planned...=( )
sent my sis's friend home...
came back to Pandan Indah...
Go Public Bank...
Draw money...
Pay ppl back money den got home...
From Pandan Indah to Home took like 10-15 minutes?
From Bangsar to Jusco Maluri took umm 30 minutes?
From Jusco Maluri to Pandan Indah...took FOREVERRR...
lol...
KL traffic...ughhhhhhh...

Christmas '09

This year I had more fun than expected...^^
Tho' it wasn't as exciting as the last...
It was very much more enjoyable...
Got less presents this year too...
But can't blame dem...
I didn't give many either...><
But anyways presents are much more satisfying this year...
My sis gave me a puzzle book...granted it doesn't sound satisfying...
but i like feeling smart so what the hell...>< and also a cap from esprit...
It's really nice...lovee it!!^^...
Anndrea gave me a pair of earrings...
Cammie gave me a couple of novels (chick lit...xD) coz well i love reading...hehe
and well d day is still young rite??...^^
hmm
well...thats about it...for now...^^

owh owh...and
agree-ing with ryan abt d charles thing...
but then again like daniel said...beauty is in the eye of the beholder...
sooo... me no judgeee...^^
umm and d drama frm d youth is great cute funnii and very meaningful...
Brandon is HUGE!!...well tall like reaaaallyyy tall...
and err...
met Rachel Joshua and yada yada...
pictures will be posted when I see dem on FB...xD
cheerio...teehee

xoxo

LOVIN' BEING SINGLE...^^

so yeah...

I'm unavailable...heeeeeeeeeeeeee

10/12/09

"A Girl is Happiest When She is Shopping...
That is, Until She Gets Home And See The Receipts =S"

I went out with my mom today...^^
we went KLCC and err well spent...ALOT...
anyways...I got a new pair of shoes...
A new hoodie, 3 pairs of pants from Romp, Lingerie and other stufffssss...>.<
End result = RM 1594.60 =S

owh owh...btww...I got the Starbucks Organizer dii!!!...wyeeeee
I'm gonna start collecting them every year...
Like my Sis...she has 2008 2009 and 2010...
btw 2009 one is really really nice...
My sis's friend has like 4 of the 2010 Organizer...==
Apparently he practically lives in Starbucks...
Everyday from 8 a.m. - 4 p.m. lols

anywayss...pix!!

I'm so scared

I'm so scareddd...
St. Johns BFA exams are on Sunday...
It's not like it's nervous or wtv...
I'm just scared...
idk...
if it was nervous dat would be normal...
but I'm scared...
like really scaredd...>.<

besides that...
sometimes people just don't wan to remember someone...
and well I don't want to remember someone...
but he keeps asking me if i remember him...
I really feel like telling him it's more of a don't want to remember than a don't remember...
should I??
but I'll feel bad...==

aiih fgt it I have more pressing matters at hand...T.T
BFA...TT
should be okay rite??
Oh my Lord...I got one word to say...
help...T~T

-xoxo-

It's not only me anymore...
so many things are happening...
and in so little time...
everything is going too fast...
why??...I'm so confused...
I can't keep up...

My mom is mad at me...TT

aiih...
okok I get it right so I woke up late...(5pm) >.<
but still dun hav to get so mad right??
I'm guessing she had a bad day...
but stilll I'm her daughter right??
aiiih guess i gotta go apologize...

but anywayss...
IT WAS THE BEST SLEEP EVERR!!!
I FEEL SOOOOO REFRESHED!!

BBGS(2) Last Yearbook

Recently while cleaning out the study room I found my old yearbook...

From when I was 7...

Looking through it I noticed how different we looked from back then...

I don't have pigtails anymore...

ALOT of people slimmed down...

Quite a few grew in size as well...
How nice If we all can go back to how we were then and fix our mistakes...
Anyways...just reminiscing...>.<

Currently my favorite song...
why?? Coz I can relate...

Friday night beneath the stars
In a field behind your yard
You and I are paintin' pictures in the sky
And sometimes we don't say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

Just a small town boy and girl
Livin' in a crazy world
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true
And I don't try to hide my tears
The secrets or my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me
You say that you can't live without me

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

When I'm with anybody else, it's so hard to be myself
Only you can tell

That I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
the other half I'm only trying to let you know
that what I feel is true

And I'm only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you
With you

Uh huh
Yeah

-xoxo-

I can't be me anymore...
Coz ur hardly ever there for me nowadays

Would You Hate Me If I Said I've Actually Been In Love With You All This Time??

I have a friend...
despite all the guys I have had a crush on...
He is still my number one...
problem is he doesn't know it...
And I can't let him know...
Cause I don't know how he'll react...
What if we can't be friends anymore??...
I don't want that...
I'm writing this in tears...
Why??...
I don't know...
PMS i guess...
Suddenly talking about him to Ephraim probably triggered it...>.<
I feel so stupid...
Why are men so dense!!?? >.<
How can he not realize??...
After so fucking long...
How can he make me so happy and so sad at the same time...??
How can he talk to me so casually when I'm a nervous wreck!...??
How can he make me want to laugh and cry...??
How can he just not care sometimes!...??
Does he not know it crushes me...??
How can I Love and Hate him at the same time...??
How can I let myself feel this way...??
How can I be so stupid...??
How can I let him through just like that...??
arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-xxxx-

I've gotta set myself straight...
Know that a "we" with him is impossible...

Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield

My blog's current song is kinda ironic 'cause well it's a blog...
so how can it be unwritten rite??...
but I think it's really meaningful cause it's like...
everything is controlled by me...
I write what come next... So yeah here's the lyrics...

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

p.s. NTV7 also uses it...at least I think it's NTV7...=S

My mom's benz is a portable sauna and LEE MING CHAU IS A COW!!

I was gonna post abt how hot my moms benz is but now i'm too pissed...
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
LEE MING CHAU IS A STUPID COW!!!!!!!!!!!

The Stupid Cow is Stupid Because he makes me laugh even when I'm pissed at him...><
resulting in me...
not being able to stay pissed...><
Lee u cow...

Blogging from d iPhone

okay this is hard i'll just wait till i get home...

New Game!

So maybe dating C did come to some good...
getting embarrassing pictures of him sleeping!!^^
thanx to tht...
me and cam has a chauffeur!!
and this is d game...
whoever gets the most numbers of cute guys...*cellphone numbers*...in two weeks...
can rule the chauffeur *C* for until dey go back to d States!!^^
and I think I'm winning!!...^^
I got Ephraim's number...
his is my 18th since wednesday...^^
haha...
i feel evil and all...
but hey...it ain't all that bad...><

An Ideal Feature?...

Someone once asked me what I want in a guy...
well...like every other normal human being...I said...
Someone who understands me and will be able to connect easily with me...
Someone who cares about making me happy...
And someone who can trust me and whom I can trust...
but now I'm thinking...
who the hell is that deep!!...
I want a cute guy!!!...xDD
well besides all of the above...
it would be nice if he is a little conceited but when around me will be humble...
a guy that can feel comfortable and at the same time uncomfortable around me...
and me him...
and yes...being the usual weird me...I do have a feature I like that others usually wouldn't take notice of...><
But I can't mention it here...because...well it's weird...><
btw it's nothing perverted if any of you think that...
it's a pretty obvious feature...
kind of like hidden in plain sight for every other human being...
but somehow... it just jumps out to me...
yes I'm weird like that...><
um lemme give u guys an example...
a not so cute guy has a very cute *insert fave feature here* I would probably get attracted to him...
without even knowing y...and everyone else will wonder as well...=S
a hot guy has a not so cute *insert fave feature here* I would probably be repelled by him...
again without even knowing y...and everyone else will wonder as well...
yes that is how much it affects me...I'm weird...I know...
hehee just wondering if it happens to everyone else too??...
If it does...stop making me think I'm weird and tell me...><
okiie dokes...I shall go torture my loved ones now...TTFN...^^

-xoxo-

p.s. this post...is NOT random...but it is random to post it up...tee hee

it came!!
I'm so happii I thought the worst!!
I'm so glad!!
And I'm still so excited about what happened yday...^^

><

aww aww awww...
Idk if I should go for Daphne's party on the first...
I do wanna go...
but at the same time i don't??
Owh dear...
I'm confusing myself...><

anywaysss...
ahhhhh so happii...><
why??...*secret* hehehehe ><
hahahhah....
muahahhaa...
hahaahahah...
I'm so happii I can only laughh...xDDDD
hahahahahaaaha...
I'm weird...lol lol...

-xoxo-

I have a great reason to b happii this time...
and hahahah...
omg!! I am overjoyed!...ecstatic!!
I feel like I'm gonna explode!!
ahhhhh!!!!!!!xDD

Hacked

me thinks someone hacked me's blog...=S

Oooo

today is friday...
today was supposed to be the last day of school...
knowing me...
I obviously didn't go...
owh well...
it's just another day...><

-x0x0-

currently obsessing on him...
him him him...
thats all I can think of...
I make a lousy secret love...
can't hold it in...><

Floatin' or Fallin'??

People start to think they are falling in love at any given point of life...
What is that all about anyway?...
Recently, around a month or two back?, I wrote a post about Love...(click to see it)
Yea so after sounding so pro-like back then...
I'm starting to wonder again...
Really what is it...
What if love isn't really love...
and it's really actually just another illusion created from all of out humanly wants and needs...
what if the perfect illusion isn't so perfect and it crashes right when we need it the most...
If you're also wondering why I'm full of questions...
It's cause I just woke up with all these questions flooding my mind...
Why you ask??What kind of dreams did I have...??
Truth is I don't know...==
how crappy...xp Why can I never remember my dreamsss...
O.O okayy I wavered away from my topic...
Okay so back to where I was...
What if falling in love isn't as great as it sounds...??
People like to fall in love...
but don't they realize that when falling you're bound to hit the ground and crash sooner or later?...
Love isn't a carnival ride where once it goes down it will bounce back up again without hurting you..
It's something that's so hard and intense...
just being around it can crush your insides...
so why do people want it so much??
is it really just for the floating feeling you get before you realize you're falling??
is it really all just for the floating feeling??
recently I felt that floating feeling again...
I noticed the symptoms and decided I should stay grounded..
Since well...
if you float you're bound to fall sooner or later...
like a balloon running out of helium...
yikess...
now I'm going science...eeeeessssshhh...
okay okay...
I have filled my needs for today...
I'm gonna do something now...IDK wad yet...
*blinks*
wad to dooooo!!!??? Owh i know I'll rot...
bored...
rots...
before turning into a complete pile of ashes...she hits post!!...O.O...
okay lame...but so what!?? don't like it?? SUE ME...=P

-xoxo-

I don't want to continue floating into oblivion...
the person I'm floating for...
I hope he holds me grounded...
so I won't float away den fall and kill everything...><

hmmm...

ahhh...
ummm...
ehhh...
errr...
So what's my glitch again??...=S

-xoxo-

why do i keep falling for the same people over and over??
xp...
i'm stuupid

Oooo...

Owh there's something I'd like to post...
ahem ahem...
it's about a girl and everything a bunch of us hate abt her......
why am i posting it??
coz i feel like being a bitch...=p...

1. Bitchy
   
2. Fatt Hau
3. Pan Cute
   
4. Selfish
5. 8 poh
6. Assumes people will do everything she says...
7. "Puteri Lilin"
8. Bad Taste
9. Annoying
10. Liar "A Great Story-Teller"
11. 2 Faced...sorry...Many faced...
12. Likes to betray her friends...
13. A Fake Friend...
14. Back Stabber...
15. Always look for trouble...and creates problems...
16. Loves criticizing everyone...
17. Always compare...
18. Gets Jealous easily...
19. Attention seeker...okay more like Attention begger...
20. If go shoppe with her...forces people to buy things...
21. Assumes everyone is just as rich as her...
22. Drama Queen
23. Insensitive...
24. Too Look concious...
25. Greedy
26. Expect people to wait for her...
27. Never Early
28. Cnt Keep a Secret to save her life...
29. Always thinks she's right...
30. Copy Cat...
31. Show off...But got nth to show...
32. Takes credit for sumthin someone else did...(not all d times...only sometimes...)
33. Nvr Helps her friends...
34. Doesn't appreciate her friends...
35. Doesn't mean wad she says...
36. Cnt keep promises
37. Always assuming...(lol)
38. Naive
39. Sohai...umm
40. swallows her self in pity...
41. Makes use of people...
42. Puts her bf above her friends...
43. She's allowed to be wrong...but we're not
44. She MUST know our secrets but she won't tell us hers...
45. Easily angry...Hot Head (for the dumbest most selfish reasons)
46. Involves us in her problems...
47. Likes to Nag
48. Bossy
49. In a team...She doesn't work...
50. Lazy
51. No team Spirit...
52. Gives up fast
53. Super Duper Perasan
54. Last minute decide-r
55. Always changes her mind...
56. Likes to FFK
57. Like to take other ppls things...
58. Thinks she's very high class...
59. stingy
60. likes to bitch abt ppl...(yes i know thts wad i'm doing but owh well...)
61. smart alec
62. likes to expand and exaggerate stories...
63. Always force ppl to do things even if they said no...
64. ACTING...<>
65. so think but still goes on diet...(unintentionally/intentionally makes us feel bad)
66. Lousy Fashion sense...
67. Lousy judgement
68. Cheapskate(takes advantage of everything tht involves money)
69. Thinks she very popular
70. Likes to crap
71. Disgusting at times...
72. Tak tahu malu...thick skinned
73. Kills mood
74. Likes to drag ppl around treating dem like a dog
75. Very dependent
76. Childish but acts mature...
77. Pampered...
78. Force ppl to lie for her sake...
79. Party spoiler...Fun Killer
80. Potong steamer...lol
81. Dumbo> Dumb ass> Dumb F*ck...=)
82. Scaredy Cat
83. Always disobey her parents....(not my problem...but hey)
84. Always complain abt bf but sticks to him like super glue...
85. Doesn't get it when people say no!...still keep pestering the person...
86. Possessive
    
87. Like to push the blame to others
88. Unfair
89. We are all 65% sure she ain't a virgin...
90. Like to flirt with other ppls love interest eventhough she has a bf...(yes tht includes her friends love interest...)
91. Never admits her mistakes
92. Threatens people...
93. She makes other ppl believe lies...
94. Judges other ppl w/o judging her self 1st
95. hypocrite x (infiniti)
96. Makes problems den avoids dem...
97. Must have everything her way...
98. Clingy
99. Perverted, Cheap <<>
100. Everything about her!!

okay I realize some repeats...
but hey...we were trying to reach 100 lol...
and yes...I wasn't the only one who contibuted to this list..=p

Didn't realize a guy can be such a bitch... and more...

So anyways there's this guy...
the faggot...
how bitchy can he get...
how can someone be so full of himself...
and not realize that practically everyone around him hates him...
ughh...he's disgusting...
so yeah lets all forget about the faggot coz thats wad he is...
a faggot...doesn't deserve a second of our attention...
not even worth being thought of...
so why am i writing about him??...
wasting my precious time...
well thts okay i have plenty to spare...(what am i talking about??...==)

okayyy so yea i haven't been blogging alot...
been lazy...=(
that and Lai took forever to gimme back my laptop after he reformatted it..

anywaysss...we did something fun on saturday...
we went to times square to celebrate a belated bday for cin!!...yayy
met a few ppl...
jason kelvin lam and jin...
I learned 2 things...
Jason can sing...
and Yin Ru CANNOT drink...lol
actually 3 things...
I must never ever sing again when i have a cold...
stupid stupid me...

Oh btw...
feeling wayy exposed rite now...
arghhh...stupid ephraim...xp

owh umm...
GOOD LUCK ALL SPM-ERss...^^

Halloween and Exam...scaryyy (story)

sooo...

yday was halloween...

Cam and C came back for the month...

they'll be leavin' in the third week of Nov...

well...

as most people know...

They loooovveee parties...

Thus...

a pre-halloween and halloween party was made...==

pre-halloween was on the 30th...my sisters bday...

*was supposed to go to school that day...but...well lets just say imma bad girl...*

so yeah...

my sister's bday so couldn't have the party at nite...

so they threw it in the afternoon...

meaning...pool party!!...^^

it was just a small thing for us...

like a reunion...

we were doing face painting and stuff...

and kent went and painted his body...

it took him forever to paint it...

it actually looked like he was wearing something...

that is until C , Max and Ash threw him into the water...

haha den he realli did look like a monster...

I didn't take any pictures though...TT

C did but well he used his SLR instead of the DSLR...

so we have to wait for the boss to wash the pics...==

and it's gonna take him FOREVERRR...

so yea...that nite they came over and we did each others make up...

practicing for the party...

owh no wait...

not each other...

I was doing the make up...==

and well costumes were Cams department...

IDK where she gets those things...

supposed to go to a party with joyenn...

but my mom said no...

so I ended up going to their party...

and yes...like last year...

everyone got drunk and so I had to suffer a very awkward ride home with Marco...==

Marco has low alcohol tolerance so he doesn't drink at all or he faints...

I can drink alcohol...but don't particularly like it...

so we were the only 2 sober people left in the hse...==

so very very awkward...

why wassit awkward??...ask me yourself...

so yea...

party was fun...

went home at around 2-3...

anywayss...

I've been meaning to post this up...

it's a story we made up in school the other day...

coz we were mega bored!!

btw...

it is completely fictional...!!

nothing is real!!

Girl stripped herself nakedly in public
everyone stared at her
including Cute guy
it was actually Other Girl's face
Cute guy feels stimulted because Other Girl's face does not match Girl's body

then Cute guy took a photo
Girl approached Cute guy and hugged him
but Cute guy pushed Girl away and slapped her
Girl went home crying
when she reached home, she saw Other Girl n Boy on the bed naked
Girl pulled Other Girl away and blind-folded Boy and raped him...

with a cucumber...==
Boy commited suicide

Boy's GF got angry and got into a fight with Girl
the next day, Girl raped Other Boy
instead of Other Boy commiting suicide,Other Boy's GF commited suicide
Other Girl feels bad for creating this story so she killed herself
when Other Boy's GF was in heaven, she saw Mother raping ex-Father on a cloud
all of a sudden Dreamer woke up and it was her best dream ever...

The Story is COMPLETELY fictional...

names have been hidden for certain reasons...^^

p.s. exams tmr...><

Desa Park City!!

Went to a Tetra Pak Event at Desa Park City just now...
I walked 2.5km with Ariel then another 2.5km with jewelz...
wanted to walk again with everyone else...
but I got a blister...TT...owwwww
Anywaysss...
It was gorgeous the lake the view the landscape and best of all the playground!!
The swing was HUGE!! hehe...yes I'm 16 and I looooove swings...^^
The breeze was wonderful...
The sound of kids running around...
And the sight of kites flying in the sky...
All in all it was pretty cool...
Oh how I wish I live there...
I left my family and walked around alone...
Exploring the "scenery"...(but seriously I actually wanted to explore the scenery...I just got side-tracked)
And boy did I explore...
I explored straight into my phone...
And now I have more friends...lol
But no...
I failed in making more girlfriends...==
seriously I have not enough girlfriends...
I NEED to make more...
So yea anyways...
I learned that people find it easier to approach you when you have a dog...
As long as you have a dog...
The opposite sex will definitely come...be it girl or boy...
so yes...
walking 5km...
2 dogs...
Each 2.5km...
got me...
a blister...
and lotsssss of numbers...hahahaaaaaaa
so yeah...
Happii Birthday To Me!!^^

-xoxo-

Thought about you all day...
When I was bathing...
Having lunch...
Walking the dogs...
Getting numbers...
All I could think about was you...
But hey...
You couldn't even text me a happy birthday...
So why am I wasting my time on you...
so this is me...MOVING ON

p/s. Did I mention I have an Ice-cream cake from baskin robbins??...xDD HAPPIIII

??

I really don't know if this is the best or the worst birthday ever...
well...it's still early...
we'll see what happens later...

-xoxo-

I like you so much that even the slightest thing can make me hate you...

I did something I swore I would never do for a guy again...
Cry...

Today!!! lol lol

Today was fun...
Liked the surprise...
I laugh when I'm embarassed...
thank god it was dark...
My face felt hot...
I bet I was beat red...
Anyways...Love you guys!!<3<3<3
I'm to lazy to post...
I'll let cindel post...lols...

-xoxo-

Thought about you a lot today...
Guess I didn't reach my quota of forgetting...
I'm feeling great but lousy...
Why don't u like me like I like you??
Why do I never get the one I want??...~~

Day 6 Last Day

fweeett!!
Last Day Of Phase One!!!!
okok...So it's not really day anymore...but wtv...=p
Had Econs and Acc...
Econs...
err...still okay?...
Acc was murder resurrection just to be murdered again...
argh...
forget it...it's over now...

My parents went to the UTK gathering...
My mom came home acting like a crazed fan...lol
anyways...
UTK stands for...
ok IDK wad it stand for...
but it's something to do with police ranking...
since my dad was an ex-police tht worked with Mahathir b4...
he was invited as a VIP...
and my mom kept saying how she and Mahathir was sitting back to back lol...
and also how she thinks she is d only spouse that went...lol
anyways...it's cute to see parents like tht sumtimes...
don't cha think??^^

-xoxo-

I'm pretty much over him...^^
yay me!!!^^

Another one of my many unread e-mails

Subject: Losing a Friend



THIS IS A VERY TOUCHING STORY ABOUT LIFE & DEATH,

AND THE FRIENDS THAT WE HAVE.

IT'S CERTAIN TO STIR UP YOUR HEART, TOUCH YOUR SOUL.

THIS EMAIL IS ONE I COULD NOT AFFORD NOT TO SHARE WITH MY FRIENDS.

I'M STILL CHOKED UP OVER IT!
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HAHA!!

Day 5 ; Denial Or Just plain Crazy??

Day Five of exam...
We had Science then Sejarah...
Science was okay...
considering I don't even know where my book is...
I actually finished it in an hour...
Maybe it was because IDK what to write??...
At Q 10 d procedure question...
I wrote a question mark...as to say...I have absolutely no idea...
And I wrote crap on everything else in that question...
Sejarah on the other hand...not so okay...
Idk why...
but I kept falling asleep...
In the BEGINNING of the exam...
ughh...
anywayss...
thx to Cik...no...Pn. Amni...I think I managed to pass...
it's not like she thought us anything...
but hey as long as wad she did helped us pass...
I'm grateful...^^

Me and Cin were high once we were done with d Sejarah xm...
I think we were in denial...
it's either that or craziness is contagious...lol

Moved On...I think...

I think I've moved on...
well pretty sure...

Speaking about moving on...
Today one of my aunt passed away...
She's my mom's step-sister...
Juz a few weeks ago her son passed away...
Life is so fleetingly short and fragile...
We should appreciate it more...!!

Exam tomorrow...
Science and Sejarah...
TT...
please...
book a coffin before it's too late to...

Amni's wedding today...
I didn't go...lol...
Actually I forgot about it...
aaaaaand I didn't really wanna go anyways...=p

-xoxo-

I might not've completely moved on from you...
but every journey requires a first step...
and I've taken that step...

Love??

wyeeeeeeee...
I'm stealing justin's post title...^^
Oh and I also wanna answer that question!!

hmm...What do I think Love Is??

I think love is when you're afraid of holding someone cause you don't want them to break...
When you care so much for someone you can forget to care for yourself...
When you feel happy just seeing the other person happy...
When you feel like dying by just seeing the other person slightly down...
When you can even give up the person just for she/he to be happy...
Love is when no matter how hard you try...
You just can't bring yourself to be selfish...

anyways back to my post...

Insomnia is haunting me...
blame it on my infatuation/love sickness...*see my last post*
conclusion...
LOVE IS BAD FOR HEALTH!!
or maybe it's infatuation...
either ways it's still bad for health...
but I'm not that much of a health freak anyways...sooo...
I have no idea what the point of this post is...
I might be in denial...*again see last post*
anywaysssss...
la la laaaaaaa...
lol idk wad to sayy!!! omgggg!!!
Sarah has ran out of words!!!! noooooooooooo!!!!!!!!
omg omg omg wad to do wad to do wad to do!!!
eh eh...
I haven't ran out of words...
I've been typing!!
O.O...oooooo
okay lame random pointless...
how dumb...
i'm dumb...what to do??
O.o...
sarah's a dumb dumb...><

-xoxo-

In denial...
for the first time in a long time...
I just wanna slit my wrists open and watch the blood flow out...
just to keep my mind off some things...
I'm desperately desperate...
I want to sleep...
but I can't fall asleep...
I want to cry...
but I feel like all my tears have dried up...
so all I can do is this...

slapped...

Slapped by my own words...
I dug my own grave of infatuation...
It's time to get over it!!
NO MORE MOURNING!!
I'll accept dates!!
I said dates not boyfriends...
so yea...
umm...actually this post sounds kinda cheap...lol
phoooooiieee...
still emo-ing abit...
but I wanna get over it...
so I'll do everything I can...
and I'll need all the help I can get...

ahh...it hurts

Darling leave a light on for me
I'll be there before you close the door
To give you all the love that you need
Darling leave a light on for me
'cause when the world takes me away
You are still the air that I breathe
Belinda Carlisle-Leave a Light on for Me

it hurts...
it really does...
why...
why does it hurts so bad?...
MAKE IT STOP!!
everything is pounding!!
My head!!
My ears!!
my heart...
my heart wants to stop...
or rather...I want it to stop...
I wanna cry...
But I'm smiling...
I wanna scream...
But I'm silent...
I wish I could just block EVERYTHING out...

-xoxo-

close my eyes,
and pray really really hard...
pray that it didn't actually happen...
that it was all in my imagination...

breathe in breathe out...repeat again for like ever...

Breathe Breathe...
I get it I was d one that made the mistake...
But your reaction is too much isn't it??
arghhhhhhh...
If you didn't like it then just say so...
you didn't have to flip over like that!!

Ahh...
nvm ler...
It's just a small fight...
Sorrii Sorrii Joo!!!
My fault...dun get too mad kayy...

-xoxo-

Day 4 ; Liquid Diet!!

Moral...screw moral...
it's a waste of time...
arghhh...
well can't blame anyone but myself...
I'm the one that doesn't even know where her textbook is...haha
I left a WHOLE question blank...
the one about dasar berkecualian thinggyyy...
owh wellll...
so anyways...
I finished early...(not really finish more of give up)
and I started doodling on my exam paper...
The whole front of my paper if filled with weird happii stuff...
lols...
I'm gonna fail n yet I'm happii...
I think I'm in denial...lols...

I'm going on a diet!!
Half Liquid Diet!!
only eat solid food per meal per day...
I started today!! (btw I don't count fruits as solid...lol)
had some stuff in school...
den I went GE Mall...went to Penang village...
But I persevered!! And I only had Ribena Longan and a few spoons of Ice kacang...
Okay i didn't really persevered...
I just really really wanted to drink starbucks so I didn't wanna eat...lol
but hey...
I still didn't eat...
tonite eating banana or drinking Milo...
><...who wanna join me!!!!??
It's boring dieting on ur own...
Then at d end of the month whoever looses more weight gets to get 1 wish from the other party...
good idea??
can go gym oso!...
I don't gym partners no more...
everyone is studying...WTH laa...ishh...
Finals only maaaa...
so so??
siapa nak temankuu??

-xoxo-

Day 3...rants? forget it... ; Oscar!!

Add math...
I give up...
I just wanna die...
I officially hate exams...
So far everything was horrible...
TT...*cries silently in a corner*
Tomorrow is Moral...
prepare my funeral please...

Remember the baby I blogged about...
The one my aunt is taking care of??
Well I went to my aunt's hse again today...
When I got into d hse he woke up from the sound of the door opening...
So I started playing with him...
at first he was kinda cranky and didn't wanna play...
den I picked him up and pretend to drop him...
so cute wei!!!
he was smiling with his mouth open!!!!
and u can see his little teeth growing!!
ahhh!!!
I just wanted to pack him up and bring him home!!
I hope one day I get a kid as cute as him!! xDDD
When I went home he grabbed on to me and wouldn't let go...
When I gave him to my aunt he started crying weih!!!
awwww!!!!So cuuuuuuuuuuuteeeeeeeeeee!! *yes I think it's cute when kids cry...it gets annoying when they cry too long though...yes i know I'm weird...*
then I carried him out and this other kid...*kimberly*...she said...
"no no, don't take him!!" den she grabbed his legs so I couldn't take him out...lol
so I put him down and my aunt let him play with some keys to keep him occupied...
den i left...lol
idk if he cried later when or if he did notice...
aww aww awww!! he's so cute laaa!!...
I wish I had a picture to post!!
will post it soon if i can get him to stay still for a second the next time i see him...^^
cute lil' Oscar...
hate the name though...lol...tacky...

-xoxo-

close my eyes and envision it...
a perfect life...
with perfect you...

Singleee

SS Single has docked!!
And Sarah will be going on board!!
Well unless the SS Dense Men docks and he gets off...
Then I'll join him...
Yes this means I WILL stay single until I completely forget about him...
Or he decides to answer to my unrequited love...
It would be nice if said something...
A no would be better than him being completely oblivious...
aiihhh...
This is why I always say men are idiots...
But hey I'm crushin on an idiot...
that makes more of an idiot...no??
haha...
I'm being awfully positive about this...
I'm so weird I scare myself...@~@
xDD

-xoxo-

I'll keep waiting for an answer...
Even if it take a lifetime...

Day 2 RANT!!

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
Mariah Carey- Butterfly

Currently addicted to this song...
It's really sweet...
It's kinda old though...
anywaysss...
Day 2 of my exams!!
English paper...
Paper 2 first...
okay lerr...
I completely forgot everything about the poem If though...
aiikkss ><
so yeah...messed up on that one...
Then paper 1 oivayy this one sure die dii...
Question one was okay...
everything was fine...
den i did question 2...
well the first essay i did was d one about love...
and coz i'm so free now I'm gonna type it out!!...wyeee...xDD

Question 2

"I LOVE YOU!!" Micheal shouted. That was the only thing Theresa remembered from her dream last night, if it was a dream, she couldn't be sure. Everything is so blurry, last night felt so real yet at the same time so impossible.

She had fallen for Micheal since she first met him,the first day of school. Too bad for her he was already dating someone at the time. They recently broke up and Theresa wondered why. She had always thought that they made a great couple, even though she likes him. She got her answer last night when Micheal confessed everything to her. He said it was because he couldn't get Theresa out of his mind and it drove his girlfriend, ex-girlfriend, crazy. That he had fallen inlove with her. HER! She still couldn't believe it, but there's no denying it. She could feel the love notes he gave her last night tucked in her pockets and distinctly remembered the warmth of his body from when he wrapped his arms around her body last night.

When she walked through the school gates he looked at her and smiled his dazzling smile, she blushed as a reply. He then walked towards her and kissed her on her forehead then put his arm around her waist. ...

I stopped there because I started thinking...
The last time I wrote a love story Zuraidah hammered me...
she'd sooooo hate this...
So I ended up writing another essay...It turned out horrible...
Then another and that turned out horrible as well...
So I just randomly picked onr and I pick the one on Good Leadership Qualities
I thought it would be easy...
But IDK why but I had writers block...
I had no idea what to write...
I ended up writing the dumbest sounding sentence ever!!
"A good leader has to have lots of good qualities or he will not be able to be a good leader"
A very stupid sentence...
The King of stupid sentences...
So I started again...
this time it turn out okay...
and i mean only okay...it actually sucked...but passable...
but halfway through the 2nd paragraph teacher went..."15 minutes left"
I was like HOLY COWW!!!
I got frustrated and started crapping again...
in the end...
I don't think I even reached 3 hundred words...
I'm so screwed!!!!!! ughhhh

-xoxo-

p/s my 1st essay is nice...I'm thinking I would make a good novelist...heheee

why does it hurt so bad...
I want to forget...
But I can't

On my mind...

I wake up every morning with you on my mind...
Rush to bed every night hoping to see you in my dreams...
I heard them say "Out Of Sight, Out of mind"...
I though to myself "How could this be true, as I hardly see you but you're always on my mind",
Everything you do can change my expressions drastically,
Even the slightest thing you do can change my mood,
You control my emotions,
Every time you say something the gears in my head moves faster than usual,
When our eyes meet you send electric waves through my veins...
Talking to you at night gives my sweet dreams...
Talking to you in the morning makes my day...
Just talking to you seems like a dream...
You are a Dream...
A dream come true...
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wyeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
this post was made completely with the intention of practicing for my english exam tomorrow...
bet you were wondering..."Who is she talking about!!??"
hehee...not bad huh??

-xoxo-

Not one second passes without you crossing my mind
And when you do...I'll wonder if I'm crossing yours...
Me and my unrequited love
A painful experience

Day 1

Day one of the result of the idiocy of our teachers...
Had BM exam today...
What can I say except...hate hate hate hate hate~~ ==
urghhh...
I swear it will be the death of me!!...
anywaysss...
we had BM paper 1 1st...
Bahagian A was okayyy...
Bahagian B was fine until I ran out of ideas...
then it was just..."Dammit Just randomly put words to increase the amount!!" xD
in the end I got 397 words for bahagian B...
it wasn't too bad I guess...
then after recess we had paper 2...
gawdd!!
I swear I will never ever ever even think of taking kesusasteraan Melayu in U...
KOMSAS is murder!!
I wanted to tear the paper!! eesshhh!!
then the rumusan...
crap! it was crap!!
and the worst part was...
When I was done with it...
I put my answer sheet at the corner of my table...
Pn. Sharifah looked at it and clicked her tongue and shake her head!!
SHE CLICKED HER TONGUE!!
LIKE I DIDN'T TRY TO UNDERSTAND HER WEIRD BRAIN THT GAVE US A WEIRD PASSAGE!!
arghh!!!
I had to read the same sentence at least 3 times before it can be processed in my head!!
And the words were so tiny and so close together it was impossible to read!!
Not to mention my contacts were starting to dry and irritating my eyes!!
arghh!!!!
finally the bell rang and the nightmare was over...phooieee...

Then after school...
My cousin picked me up...
I don't have piano lessons today coz my teacher has seminar or sumthin...
Soo...we went to her hse for awhile...
My aunt is taking care of the cutest little boy!!
He is supposed to be chinese but he looks malay lol...
maybe his mom was naughty...xDD
anywayss!!
He has these ginormous googly teddy bear like eyes!!
and he this the sweetest chocolate coloured skin!!
And his baby fats just made him even cuddlier!!
I actually asked my aunt if I could have him...lol lol
den went for lunch and came home...
Then I told my mom I'm to lazy for tuition today...
And the most amazing thing happened!!
She said Ok!!
I don't need to go for tuition today!!!
lolsss...
for those of you who don't know...
my mom is scary and is usually very strict about stuff tht involve my education or money...
but has been kinda lenient these days...
looovveee herrr...<3<3<3

-xoxo-

I always wonder if you feel the same way~~

Changes

Been listening to old songs from the 90s lately...
Reminiscing about the happy days...
Back when I was a kid and everything was easy...
When a song was just a tune with some words...
now to me a song actually means something...with or without words...
Everything seems different...
Even the songs from then...
I guess everything does seem different when you see it from a different point of view...
I realize how much things have changed...
How different things are now compared to then...
I realize how much I've changed...
How far I've traveled since then...
How much I've grown...
The variety of people I've met and befriended...
The people I love...
And the people I hate...
The people I laugh with and the people I cry with...
Each and everyone of us...different from when we first met each other...
I guess what I'm trying to say is...
Everyone and everything changes...
No one can stop it...
It's only a part of life...
So don't complain about changes...
Instead...
Embrace change and learn to live and love it...
If you don't...
Well...
You'll probably be a very bitter person...
Even then you still change...

xoxo

People change,
People forget,
Then they make new memories and embrace changes...
Whether you change for the better or the worse...
It's bound to happen someday...
So LOVE yourself,
And you'll know happiness~~

mind numbing boredom!!

ughh...
today has been by far the MOST boring day of all of my 15 years 11 months 14 days...lol
anyways the best new i got today...
I actually passed my piano exam!!! xDDD
IDK how but I did!!! wyeeeeeeeeeeeeee^^
God Bless Me!!
eventhough I barely passed...
I still did!! woohoo!!
okay...thats about it...
muahhahaha!!! I passed!! I passed!!
IN YOUR FACEmom !!!

To Ponteng Or Not To Ponteng??

eheh...
should I ponteng tmr??
I'm feeling suuuuuperr lazy!!
but but exam is on tuesday and my accounts is horrible!!
but if it's already horrible one class isn't gonna change anything riiiiteee...
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what to do? what to do? what to do??
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OMG!! I just remembered!!
I haven't pass up my moral!!!!
aiiikssssss :S
owh well guess she's just gonna have to wait...^^
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hmm...
wad else ahh...errr
owh ya! I didn't sleep at all in school today!!
Amazing rite!!...xDDD
hahaha...
during math pengetua came in...
I expected someone to come in already...
but didn't expect it to be d pengetua...
It was hilarious when everyone in class suddenly became so guai...xD
when the teacher said something we all responded politely and all together...haha
It was like we practiced being synch or sumthing lol
It was the 1st time ever the class was so guai...xD
funnii gilerr...hahaa
tmr supposed to have lisan...
but i haven't gotten my dialog from Cin :S
but like I said...I don't wanna go to school tmr...xD
okayy ending my post with something weird...
today i didn't get annoyed at Victor... :S scarryyy xDD

xoxo
lovessss

Samuelss~~

Recently I was talking to my friend...
and I mentioned Samuel...
and she was like which?...
We started counting the Samuels we know and well...
look at the list...
(these are the ones I know)
-Samuel Chen (Through Cammie)
-Samuel Chew (Through Max)
-Samuel Cheong (Through Trish)
-Samuel Lee (Online)
-Samuel Lum (School)
-Samuel Ong (Std5 Tuition)
-Samuel Teoh (Through Will)
-Samuel Wong (At Cammie's Party)
-Samuel Woo (Through Ash)
-Samuel Yong (At Cammie's Party)
-Samuel Young (Church)

*This Post has been completely random...lol lol*

xoxo
lovesss

All-Nighter...><

wyeeee...
pulled an all-nighter last night...
finally finished my essay...
though it's kinda horrible...lol
but wtv...
it's just something to use to stuff into tht eff-ing byotch's mouth...
Today was a bloody waste of time going to school...
acc teacher go kursus...
moral teacher din come in...
english teacher din come in...
after recess...
civics didn't do anything...
math teacher oso din come in...
before recess i slept for 4 periods...
I had a crick in my neck for ages!!
then during recess i got my toy to help me keep my phone...heheeee^^
den i fell asleep so didn't get to say thx to him...
so now...
THANK YOU!!!^^
and GOOD LUCK FOR UR PMR!!^^

this section of the post is dedicated to Samuel Young...
wyeeeee...
happii happii...xD
narhh not not emo at all...xDDD
specially un-emo for u...lolll

ahh...

I wonder...
I really wonder...
What is wrong with me...
arghhh!!!!
I absolutely HATE this feeling!!
STUPID!! He's so incredibly STUPID!!!
I get it...SPM is comin up...
but he doesn't have to completely block me out rite!!
ARGHH!!! FUCK!!!
He's so cruel!!
idk if i really like him...
Or do I just not like being ignored that much...
aiiihh...
owh well...
anyways...
i conveniently forgot to bring my essays to school today...lol
so i'll be passing it up tmr...
guess i'll be pulling another all nighter

my 100th post

Lols...
my 100th post...
I didn't even realize...
anyways...just felt like saying...

I've been feeling slightly depressed...
IDK why...
but I just am...
aiih...
anyways...I'll just forget about it...

4 frigging essays for moral!!
And I only got until Wednesday!!
DAMNNN!!...
I completely forgot!!
I'm gonna be screwwwwed!!!!!T.T

Ahhh dammit!!

ahh!!! Dammit!!
My allergy's are back!!
fuck fuck fuck!!...
I don't even know what I'm allergic too!!!
Grrrrr...

...

I cried today...
I haven't cried in a long time...
With the exceptions of watching sappy sad movies...
But I cried without reason...
I hate it...
I hate pitying myself...
It feels disgusting...
I'm disgusted with myself...
IDK why I decided to write this post...
I was always against it...
I guess I'm just a very disgusting person...

p.s. This post is short because ppl have been complaining tht my posts are long...

p.s.s. If there where no complaints this posts might have been longer than any of my previous

posts

♥xoxo♥

Strange...For my friends...

[POST DELETED] cause it's kinda private...><
soo if friends wanna read it...i'll post it in my private blog...^^

5/09/09

Today SBS St. John members had a First Aid Seminar...
I thought it would be mind numbing and well just plain boring...
but it was kinda fun...
the day passed swiftly...
That guy was kinda cute...wad his name??...Teh Kean Long??...sumthing like tht...
when he left my friends said...actually wanted u to ask for his number de...aiihhh...
xD...
I suddenly feel like a number taking machine...lol
anyways when we finished and my mom picked me up...
she brought jewelz along...^^
so happi i really wanted to hug her...
den we took her to grooming...
i came home n took a bath coz i felt super furry...lol
1hr later...
mom said lets go pick jewelz up...==
i was like i just bathed...==
gonna get furry again...ishh
buuuut nvm^^ since i looove my princess jewelz...^^
den when i came home...
i started to feel kinda emo for some reason...( something happened i'm not saying)
everything felt too boring...
so now i'm re-listening to the same few songs over and over again...
hope tmr would b a better day...

p.s. I don't intend to help ppl dat doesn't deserve my help...

27/08/09

Today was supposed to be a happy day...
But halfway through my hormones kicked it and I put in a brats attitude...
anyways all in all a good day until i gt effing cheated by some guy on d bridge to sw...
20 bucks weii!!
soo pissed...
i did something embarrassing in ts...
but wtv...i'm never gonna see the people dere again anyways sooo..
no biggie...lols
den i got annoyed with alex for no apparent reason...
sorri alex...
den when i came home my mom ask me to give her d change from d 100 bucks she gave me...
i was like shiiit...
i gt pissed annoyed and suddenly exhausted...
went to sleep...
at 9 my dad called ask me to open d door his friend outside wanna give stuff...
i yelled at my maid to open d door...
but dey didn't...
10 minutes ltr...
dad calls and yells at me...
wth is up with tht!!??
not my fault...
cannot call d hse meh??
always nvr call me...
tiba-tiba call me ask me to do sumthing...
i was sleeping!!...
and i kena marah...
den SOMEONE...
though she didn't know tht i was already in a bad mood...
go annoy me summore...
did u not know tht if i say cannot once mean CANNOT...
if busy means BUSY...
tht status will NOT change in less than 3 minutes...
And if you ask someone how?...and the person says dunno...
means dat they dunno!!...
no matter how many times you ask dey still WON'T KNOW...
And the worst part is...
I found out something today...
And I'll never accept it!!
thats all i have to say...i'm done ranting...

watch up and the proposal today...
it was really good...
you should go check it out...
you yes you the one reading this post...

Complications...

Life is pretty complicated...
Thats what I hear everywhere I go...
But it really isn't...
It's just how you look at it...
Life is all about looking forward...
When you look back...
You're just going back on life...
This simple principle applies to every aspect of everyone's life...
Truth be told...
It is easier said than done...
But backing up once in awhile isn't really so bad...
It's easier if you think of life as a road...
When you go on the wrong road you HAVE to turn around...
And you will definitely WILL be able to somehow turn around...
But you can't just back up every time you go forward...
Or you won't ever reach your destination...
So don't be afraid of going forward...
If you get lost on the way...
And even if it seems hard to turn back...
Or if people don't give you the chance...
But if you really truly want to...
You can always use another way to get back to somewhere familiar...
But even if you do get back to somewhere familiar you still have to move forward...
You can't just be at a stand still...
So make a choice and move forward...
Because there is always another path for you to choose in front...
ahh...
this post has been completely random...^^

Thank you for reading...^^

** This post is also a reminder for me and everyone else around me...**

I'm dying...

I was just thinking...
I've always said stuff like...
I wanna die...
I'm gonna die...and...blah~blah~blah~~
well now our school has been quarantined...
because of influenza A(H1N1)...
and there has been 4 deaths in M'sia because of A(H1N1) already...
so what if...
what if One day...
instead of whining about wanting to die and stuff...
I actually do die...
At that moment I would probably be clinging on to life...
Which would be really ironic...
sooooo...
because I don't want my last few seconds of life to be filled with Irony...
I shall from today onwards!!...
Live my life!!...Like I want to live!!
lolss...
this has been completely random...lol

blogging from my phone...

"As she cuts it open she watches the bright red liquid drip onto the pure white cloth...and from that drop the red liquid spread until the cloth is completely coated in the bright red colour..."

I thought of this line one night...and told my friend about it...she asked if I wanted to drink red wine that badly...lol...
so I edited it and made it shorter...
so it would sound less like wine ==
and it became...
" cut it open and watch the bright red liquid drip onto the white cloth leaving it's mark forever..."
my nephew said blood, and ming chau said suicide...
kent said tomato sauce...==(tht guy only thinks of food cars n girls...idiot)
I told them the original 1 which was...
" She slit her wrists open and watch the thick bright red liquid elegantly drip onto his white shirt leaving her mark on him forever as she slowly fade out..."
nephew said something abt liking death lol...
ming chau said amibiguous...
cammie said sad and tht she obviously loves d guy since she leaves her mark on him...
and Kent says...== d girl's psycho == coz d guy is gonna wash d shirt anyways...== but his 1st thought was...did she pour grape juice on him??...==
long story short... Kent is an idiot...=)

To alaputra from Sohai School blog cbox...

A special award for a special girl!!
THE ONE OF A KIND GIRL AWARD!!!
This award is only given to girls that...

• Are 14 years old
• Goes to a SEKOLAH BESTARI KLUSTER KECERMELANGAN
• Pretends to be noble by "protecting" their school's rep...
  
• CUSS!! (eg. fcuk, byotch, idiot, ass etc...)
• Doesn't respect elders!!
• Doesn't have a single politeness bone in her body!!
• Insults people's creativity!! (because she doesn't get it...)
  
• Doesn't even take her own advice!!!
• And of course... trying to act smart (when she obviously isn't)

AND THE WINNER GOES TO...*drum roll*

ALAPUTRA!!!! (from the sohai school blog cbox...)

heheeeee...seee xue feng is sooo nice...
U call him idiot...he still give u award...^^
Btw he jz said give award i came up wid everything else...=p
you don't like your award????...
well...S.U.E M.E....if you can...^^

p/s. If you're a guy and ur jz saying ur a girl as a respond to my comment...well you still get the award...^^

St. John IU day...

Was kinda fun I guess...
Was also kinda high...xDD
It was the sun...I swear!!
It got me high...xD
anyways...the day went by...
1st the tour around the gallery...( it was at the telecom museum)
2nd a short presentation...
the slogan was...learn from your past, appreciate the present look forward to the future..lol
Then a short movie...Jumper SJI version...
Then a picture collage made by BRYAN GOH TSENG FOOK!!...( okay more like a piture presentation...)
Was damnnn cute man...xDD
funni abit gross...
then the gf pixx...
when fion picture came up EVERYONE turned around to see...lol
Then there was a dance thing...from a few of the guys...
nice nice nice!!!!!!! love that part!!
Then speech speech...bleah boring...
Then ICE BREAKER!!!
okay...it wasn't tht fun...
They wrote amounts of cents behind the cupons...(eg. RM 0.30)
and you were supposed to find people and make RM 2.20...
I flew to another group super fast coz I didn't wanna dance...
then I had to introduce myself...
Joyenns group was made but they didn't go out lol...
Bryan was sooooo mean he go say tht Yin Ru gt no group
den she had to fast fast find group...
or she had to go out dance...
And she well..was safe...
A bunch of people couldn't find groups so had to go up stage and dance...
as punishment...
Edward helped them out...
was reaaaaally cool...
kinda funni^^
but it was reaaally nice see-ing how sporting ppl can be...
after that there was a few minutes of intermission...
then the band came!!
It was soooooo cool...
but then we couldn't really hear the lead singer...
apparently amp got prob...
After the balik...lol
supposed to go Caps Square watch movie...
but Bryan say Caps Square gt nothing to see de...
only can watch movie...
so we ended up going KLCC...
at KLCC we couldn't get tickets...==
but we already buy popcorn!! coz we though might not have enough time...
so we ended up giving the popcorn to someone else...(couldn't sell it...lol)
and coz Bryan paid for the popcorn...
we ended up belanja-ing him dinner...lol
we went to KFC!!! hehee...
den bought prepaid reload...
and BALIK!!!
at LRT when we reach Chan Sow Lin suddenly got ALOT of people come in...
we didn't realise it at 1st...
but then Yin Ru said...
You notice a not...
everyone wearing red???
I looked up and was like...O.O
omgggggg...
Then I remembered...MU in Bukit Jalil...lol
was so weird weii...
ALL RED!!!
haha anyways thats abt it...
Got to go now...^^ hehe...

Tag...coz I'm bored... Imma horrible person...xDDD

Tag 10 people after you're done!
(one point for each one).
1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
MY TOTAL: 5

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
MY TOTAL: 9

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. received a ticket.
6. been to rehab
7. dyed your hair.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar
MY TOTAL: 4

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
MY TOTAL: 6

1. dressed gothic
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
MY TOTAL: 6

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
MY TOTAL: 6

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
MY TOTAL: 7

1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
MY TOTAL: 4

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
MY TOTAL: 9

GRAND TOTAL: 56...xDDD
If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [im average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [im a bad kid]
If You Have More Than 40...write [im a bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [im a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [i should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70..Write [i should be dead]

ummm...
anyone....lol

Certain People...and surprising fact...

I'm throughly convinced that everyone exist for a reason...
That everyone in this world exists for each other...
That all our fates criss crosses in some way...
And some people...SOME PEOPLE...
Exists to be hated...
Yea I said it...!!
Some people exists to hate and be hated back...
These are the people that find happiness...
When they sabotage and destroy other peoples hopes and dreams...
Yea...I know...
Sounds a little exaggerated ryte??
But I know people like that...
People that love them they treat wonderfully...
People that they don't like or doesn't like them...
They sabotage and make life hard for the people...
Anyways lets not talk about that...

Today I learned something...
I learned that tough we are all in form 4 already...
we still watch dumb cute funny shows...lol
> Pink Panther...
> Pokemon
> Digimon
> Doremon
> Powerpuff Girls
> Tom and Jerry
and many many more...
But I found out something daaaaaaaamn surprising...
while we were talking...
Ah Foo said..." I like to watch that show...the spy one...The three girls"
Then Kar Yan said " TOTALLY SPIES AH!!??"
Ah Foo replied"Yalar that one!"
Then Kar Yan said "That 1 girl show worr!!!!"
so there...
I learned...FOO KUO QIAT LIKE WATCHING LITTLE GIRLS CARTOONS!!!...XDDDDDD

Having the blues...

I'm feeling sad...
I want to tell someone but I don't know who...
I wanna cry but I don't know how...
I just want it all to go away...
I know how you feel em...
And I'm sorry for being so straightforward...
but I had too...
And like I said...
I know how you feel...
And I'm trying my hardest too...
so don't give up kay??
We're not just here to worry about you...
We're also here to support you!!...
Good Luck!! Gambateh!!

Sick

I'm sick...=(
awwww...
the good part...
my mom unground me out of sympathy...YAY!!
but then again...I can't look at d pc so long or I'll feel like puking...

aiih

I can't believe something like that happened...
if someone so high up on authority can treat someone under his charge like that...
how can we ever feel safe...
We look up to these authoritive figures expecting them to look out for us...
Little did we know that they are of the most danger to us...
one small mistake may even cost us our lives...
If not injuries that may cost us our future...
I'm not mentioning any names...
But I'm pretty sure most people will know what I am talking about...
Anyways my friend gave me this link...
apparently someone beat me to blogging about school violence...
this is just an example...I'm not pointing fingers...
look...click here

random...Kristy are you doing okay? lyrics and my interpretation

There’s a moment in time
And it’s stuck in my mind
Way back, when we were just kids

Cause your eyes told the tale
Of an act of betrayal
I knew that somebody did

Oh, waves of time
Seem to wash away
The scenes of our crimes
But for you this never ends

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away

Though the marks on your dress
Had been neatly repressed
I knew that something was wrong
And I should have spoke out
And I’m so sorry now
I didn’t know
Cause we were so young

Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind

anyone knows d meaning of this song??...
I just happen to think of it at the time...
the words...sound so sad...
this is what I got from the song...

lyrics
...
meaning...ok??


There’s a moment in time
And it’s stuck in my mind
Way back, when we were just kids ...
loooooong ago when we were young...duh obvious...

Cause your eyes told the tale
Of an act of betrayal
I knew that somebody did
...
There was a secret u were keeping...
u were betrayed..blah blah another obvious part...

Oh, waves of time
Seem to wash away
The scenes of our crimes
But for you this never ends
...
After so long
all should've been forgotten...
but u still hurt because of this secret...

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying To get back what was taken away
...
1st 3 lines obvious laa...
den...
Still living in the past...
this secret has kept u...
What is lost is lost...

Though the marks on your dress
Had been neatly repressed
I knew that something was wrong
And I should have spoke out
And I’m so sorry now
I didn’t know
Cause we were so young
...
There were signs...
though concealed
I knew something was wrong...
den obvious
obvious
I didn't know what to do...
I was too naive...

Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
...
Time seem to cover up the secrets left behind...

1st time i heard i thought nice song...
2nd time...nice..but sounds kinda sad...
3rd omgg i think this "Kristy" was raped...
cause u know secret, dress, innocence...
but den...i thought maybe something deeper...
haha so i decided to write it down...lol