Currently my favorite song...
why?? Coz I can relate...

Friday night beneath the stars
In a field behind your yard
You and I are paintin' pictures in the sky
And sometimes we don't say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

Just a small town boy and girl
Livin' in a crazy world
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true
And I don't try to hide my tears
The secrets or my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me
You say that you can't live without me

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

When I'm with anybody else, it's so hard to be myself
Only you can tell

That I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
the other half I'm only trying to let you know
that what I feel is true

And I'm only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you
With you

Uh huh
Yeah

-xoxo-

I can't be me anymore...
Coz ur hardly ever there for me nowadays

Would You Hate Me If I Said I've Actually Been In Love With You All This Time??

I have a friend...
despite all the guys I have had a crush on...
He is still my number one...
problem is he doesn't know it...
And I can't let him know...
Cause I don't know how he'll react...
What if we can't be friends anymore??...
I don't want that...
I'm writing this in tears...
Why??...
I don't know...
PMS i guess...
Suddenly talking about him to Ephraim probably triggered it...>.<
I feel so stupid...
Why are men so dense!!?? >.<
How can he not realize??...
After so fucking long...
How can he make me so happy and so sad at the same time...??
How can he talk to me so casually when I'm a nervous wreck!...??
How can he make me want to laugh and cry...??
How can he just not care sometimes!...??
Does he not know it crushes me...??
How can I Love and Hate him at the same time...??
How can I let myself feel this way...??
How can I be so stupid...??
How can I let him through just like that...??
arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-xxxx-

I've gotta set myself straight...
Know that a "we" with him is impossible...

Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield

My blog's current song is kinda ironic 'cause well it's a blog...
so how can it be unwritten rite??...
but I think it's really meaningful cause it's like...
everything is controlled by me...
I write what come next... So yeah here's the lyrics...

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

p.s. NTV7 also uses it...at least I think it's NTV7...=S

My mom's benz is a portable sauna and LEE MING CHAU IS A COW!!

I was gonna post abt how hot my moms benz is but now i'm too pissed...
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
LEE MING CHAU IS A STUPID COW!!!!!!!!!!!

The Stupid Cow is Stupid Because he makes me laugh even when I'm pissed at him...><
resulting in me...
not being able to stay pissed...><
Lee u cow...

Blogging from d iPhone

okay this is hard i'll just wait till i get home...

New Game!

So maybe dating C did come to some good...
getting embarrassing pictures of him sleeping!!^^
thanx to tht...
me and cam has a chauffeur!!
and this is d game...
whoever gets the most numbers of cute guys...*cellphone numbers*...in two weeks...
can rule the chauffeur *C* for until dey go back to d States!!^^
and I think I'm winning!!...^^
I got Ephraim's number...
his is my 18th since wednesday...^^
haha...
i feel evil and all...
but hey...it ain't all that bad...><

An Ideal Feature?...

Someone once asked me what I want in a guy...
well...like every other normal human being...I said...
Someone who understands me and will be able to connect easily with me...
Someone who cares about making me happy...
And someone who can trust me and whom I can trust...
but now I'm thinking...
who the hell is that deep!!...
I want a cute guy!!!...xDD
well besides all of the above...
it would be nice if he is a little conceited but when around me will be humble...
a guy that can feel comfortable and at the same time uncomfortable around me...
and me him...
and yes...being the usual weird me...I do have a feature I like that others usually wouldn't take notice of...><
But I can't mention it here...because...well it's weird...><
btw it's nothing perverted if any of you think that...
it's a pretty obvious feature...
kind of like hidden in plain sight for every other human being...
but somehow... it just jumps out to me...
yes I'm weird like that...><
um lemme give u guys an example...
a not so cute guy has a very cute *insert fave feature here* I would probably get attracted to him...
without even knowing y...and everyone else will wonder as well...=S
a hot guy has a not so cute *insert fave feature here* I would probably be repelled by him...
again without even knowing y...and everyone else will wonder as well...
yes that is how much it affects me...I'm weird...I know...
hehee just wondering if it happens to everyone else too??...
If it does...stop making me think I'm weird and tell me...><
okiie dokes...I shall go torture my loved ones now...TTFN...^^

-xoxo-

p.s. this post...is NOT random...but it is random to post it up...tee hee

it came!!
I'm so happii I thought the worst!!
I'm so glad!!
And I'm still so excited about what happened yday...^^

><

aww aww awww...
Idk if I should go for Daphne's party on the first...
I do wanna go...
but at the same time i don't??
Owh dear...
I'm confusing myself...><

anywaysss...
ahhhhh so happii...><
why??...*secret* hehehehe ><
hahahhah....
muahahhaa...
hahaahahah...
I'm so happii I can only laughh...xDDDD
hahahahahaaaha...
I'm weird...lol lol...

-xoxo-

I have a great reason to b happii this time...
and hahahah...
omg!! I am overjoyed!...ecstatic!!
I feel like I'm gonna explode!!
ahhhhh!!!!!!!xDD