ahh...it hurts

Darling leave a light on for me
I'll be there before you close the door
To give you all the love that you need
Darling leave a light on for me
'cause when the world takes me away
You are still the air that I breathe
Belinda Carlisle-Leave a Light on for Me

it hurts...
it really does...
why...
why does it hurts so bad?...
MAKE IT STOP!!
everything is pounding!!
My head!!
My ears!!
my heart...
my heart wants to stop...
or rather...I want it to stop...
I wanna cry...
But I'm smiling...
I wanna scream...
But I'm silent...
I wish I could just block EVERYTHING out...

-xoxo-

close my eyes,
and pray really really hard...
pray that it didn't actually happen...
that it was all in my imagination...