Desa Park City!!

Went to a Tetra Pak Event at Desa Park City just now...
I walked 2.5km with Ariel then another 2.5km with jewelz...
wanted to walk again with everyone else...
but I got a blister...TT...owwwww
Anywaysss...
It was gorgeous the lake the view the landscape and best of all the playground!!
The swing was HUGE!! hehe...yes I'm 16 and I looooove swings...^^
The breeze was wonderful...
The sound of kids running around...
And the sight of kites flying in the sky...
All in all it was pretty cool...
Oh how I wish I live there...
I left my family and walked around alone...
Exploring the "scenery"...(but seriously I actually wanted to explore the scenery...I just got side-tracked)
And boy did I explore...
I explored straight into my phone...
And now I have more friends...lol
But no...
I failed in making more girlfriends...==
seriously I have not enough girlfriends...
I NEED to make more...
So yea anyways...
I learned that people find it easier to approach you when you have a dog...
As long as you have a dog...
The opposite sex will definitely come...be it girl or boy...
so yes...
walking 5km...
2 dogs...
Each 2.5km...
got me...
a blister...
and lotsssss of numbers...hahahaaaaaaa
so yeah...
Happii Birthday To Me!!^^

-xoxo-

Thought about you all day...
When I was bathing...
Having lunch...
Walking the dogs...
Getting numbers...
All I could think about was you...
But hey...
You couldn't even text me a happy birthday...
So why am I wasting my time on you...
so this is me...MOVING ON

p/s. Did I mention I have an Ice-cream cake from baskin robbins??...xDD HAPPIIII

??

I really don't know if this is the best or the worst birthday ever...
well...it's still early...
we'll see what happens later...

-xoxo-

I like you so much that even the slightest thing can make me hate you...

I did something I swore I would never do for a guy again...
Cry...

Today!!! lol lol

Today was fun...
Liked the surprise...
I laugh when I'm embarassed...
thank god it was dark...
My face felt hot...
I bet I was beat red...
Anyways...Love you guys!!<3<3<3
I'm to lazy to post...
I'll let cindel post...lols...

-xoxo-

Thought about you a lot today...
Guess I didn't reach my quota of forgetting...
I'm feeling great but lousy...
Why don't u like me like I like you??
Why do I never get the one I want??...~~

Day 6 Last Day

fweeett!!
Last Day Of Phase One!!!!
okok...So it's not really day anymore...but wtv...=p
Had Econs and Acc...
Econs...
err...still okay?...
Acc was murder resurrection just to be murdered again...
argh...
forget it...it's over now...

My parents went to the UTK gathering...
My mom came home acting like a crazed fan...lol
anyways...
UTK stands for...
ok IDK wad it stand for...
but it's something to do with police ranking...
since my dad was an ex-police tht worked with Mahathir b4...
he was invited as a VIP...
and my mom kept saying how she and Mahathir was sitting back to back lol...
and also how she thinks she is d only spouse that went...lol
anyways...it's cute to see parents like tht sumtimes...
don't cha think??^^

-xoxo-

I'm pretty much over him...^^
yay me!!!^^

Another one of my many unread e-mails

Subject: Losing a Friend



THIS IS A VERY TOUCHING STORY ABOUT LIFE & DEATH,

AND THE FRIENDS THAT WE HAVE.

IT'S CERTAIN TO STIR UP YOUR HEART, TOUCH YOUR SOUL.

THIS EMAIL IS ONE I COULD NOT AFFORD NOT TO SHARE WITH MY FRIENDS.

I'M STILL CHOKED UP OVER IT!
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HAHA!!

Day 5 ; Denial Or Just plain Crazy??

Day Five of exam...
We had Science then Sejarah...
Science was okay...
considering I don't even know where my book is...
I actually finished it in an hour...
Maybe it was because IDK what to write??...
At Q 10 d procedure question...
I wrote a question mark...as to say...I have absolutely no idea...
And I wrote crap on everything else in that question...
Sejarah on the other hand...not so okay...
Idk why...
but I kept falling asleep...
In the BEGINNING of the exam...
ughh...
anywayss...
thx to Cik...no...Pn. Amni...I think I managed to pass...
it's not like she thought us anything...
but hey as long as wad she did helped us pass...
I'm grateful...^^

Me and Cin were high once we were done with d Sejarah xm...
I think we were in denial...
it's either that or craziness is contagious...lol

Moved On...I think...

I think I've moved on...
well pretty sure...

Speaking about moving on...
Today one of my aunt passed away...
She's my mom's step-sister...
Juz a few weeks ago her son passed away...
Life is so fleetingly short and fragile...
We should appreciate it more...!!

Exam tomorrow...
Science and Sejarah...
TT...
please...
book a coffin before it's too late to...

Amni's wedding today...
I didn't go...lol...
Actually I forgot about it...
aaaaaand I didn't really wanna go anyways...=p

-xoxo-

I might not've completely moved on from you...
but every journey requires a first step...
and I've taken that step...

Love??

wyeeeeeeee...
I'm stealing justin's post title...^^
Oh and I also wanna answer that question!!

hmm...What do I think Love Is??

I think love is when you're afraid of holding someone cause you don't want them to break...
When you care so much for someone you can forget to care for yourself...
When you feel happy just seeing the other person happy...
When you feel like dying by just seeing the other person slightly down...
When you can even give up the person just for she/he to be happy...
Love is when no matter how hard you try...
You just can't bring yourself to be selfish...

anyways back to my post...

Insomnia is haunting me...
blame it on my infatuation/love sickness...*see my last post*
conclusion...
LOVE IS BAD FOR HEALTH!!
or maybe it's infatuation...
either ways it's still bad for health...
but I'm not that much of a health freak anyways...sooo...
I have no idea what the point of this post is...
I might be in denial...*again see last post*
anywaysssss...
la la laaaaaaa...
lol idk wad to sayy!!! omgggg!!!
Sarah has ran out of words!!!! noooooooooooo!!!!!!!!
omg omg omg wad to do wad to do wad to do!!!
eh eh...
I haven't ran out of words...
I've been typing!!
O.O...oooooo
okay lame random pointless...
how dumb...
i'm dumb...what to do??
O.o...
sarah's a dumb dumb...><

-xoxo-

In denial...
for the first time in a long time...
I just wanna slit my wrists open and watch the blood flow out...
just to keep my mind off some things...
I'm desperately desperate...
I want to sleep...
but I can't fall asleep...
I want to cry...
but I feel like all my tears have dried up...
so all I can do is this...

slapped...

Slapped by my own words...
I dug my own grave of infatuation...
It's time to get over it!!
NO MORE MOURNING!!
I'll accept dates!!
I said dates not boyfriends...
so yea...
umm...actually this post sounds kinda cheap...lol
phoooooiieee...
still emo-ing abit...
but I wanna get over it...
so I'll do everything I can...
and I'll need all the help I can get...

ahh...it hurts

Darling leave a light on for me
I'll be there before you close the door
To give you all the love that you need
Darling leave a light on for me
'cause when the world takes me away
You are still the air that I breathe
Belinda Carlisle-Leave a Light on for Me

it hurts...
it really does...
why...
why does it hurts so bad?...
MAKE IT STOP!!
everything is pounding!!
My head!!
My ears!!
my heart...
my heart wants to stop...
or rather...I want it to stop...
I wanna cry...
But I'm smiling...
I wanna scream...
But I'm silent...
I wish I could just block EVERYTHING out...

-xoxo-

close my eyes,
and pray really really hard...
pray that it didn't actually happen...
that it was all in my imagination...

breathe in breathe out...repeat again for like ever...

Breathe Breathe...
I get it I was d one that made the mistake...
But your reaction is too much isn't it??
arghhhhhhh...
If you didn't like it then just say so...
you didn't have to flip over like that!!

Ahh...
nvm ler...
It's just a small fight...
Sorrii Sorrii Joo!!!
My fault...dun get too mad kayy...

-xoxo-

Day 4 ; Liquid Diet!!

Moral...screw moral...
it's a waste of time...
arghhh...
well can't blame anyone but myself...
I'm the one that doesn't even know where her textbook is...haha
I left a WHOLE question blank...
the one about dasar berkecualian thinggyyy...
owh wellll...
so anyways...
I finished early...(not really finish more of give up)
and I started doodling on my exam paper...
The whole front of my paper if filled with weird happii stuff...
lols...
I'm gonna fail n yet I'm happii...
I think I'm in denial...lols...

I'm going on a diet!!
Half Liquid Diet!!
only eat solid food per meal per day...
I started today!! (btw I don't count fruits as solid...lol)
had some stuff in school...
den I went GE Mall...went to Penang village...
But I persevered!! And I only had Ribena Longan and a few spoons of Ice kacang...
Okay i didn't really persevered...
I just really really wanted to drink starbucks so I didn't wanna eat...lol
but hey...
I still didn't eat...
tonite eating banana or drinking Milo...
><...who wanna join me!!!!??
It's boring dieting on ur own...
Then at d end of the month whoever looses more weight gets to get 1 wish from the other party...
good idea??
can go gym oso!...
I don't gym partners no more...
everyone is studying...WTH laa...ishh...
Finals only maaaa...
so so??
siapa nak temankuu??

-xoxo-

Day 3...rants? forget it... ; Oscar!!

Add math...
I give up...
I just wanna die...
I officially hate exams...
So far everything was horrible...
TT...*cries silently in a corner*
Tomorrow is Moral...
prepare my funeral please...

Remember the baby I blogged about...
The one my aunt is taking care of??
Well I went to my aunt's hse again today...
When I got into d hse he woke up from the sound of the door opening...
So I started playing with him...
at first he was kinda cranky and didn't wanna play...
den I picked him up and pretend to drop him...
so cute wei!!!
he was smiling with his mouth open!!!!
and u can see his little teeth growing!!
ahhh!!!
I just wanted to pack him up and bring him home!!
I hope one day I get a kid as cute as him!! xDDD
When I went home he grabbed on to me and wouldn't let go...
When I gave him to my aunt he started crying weih!!!
awwww!!!!So cuuuuuuuuuuuteeeeeeeeeee!! *yes I think it's cute when kids cry...it gets annoying when they cry too long though...yes i know I'm weird...*
then I carried him out and this other kid...*kimberly*...she said...
"no no, don't take him!!" den she grabbed his legs so I couldn't take him out...lol
so I put him down and my aunt let him play with some keys to keep him occupied...
den i left...lol
idk if he cried later when or if he did notice...
aww aww awww!! he's so cute laaa!!...
I wish I had a picture to post!!
will post it soon if i can get him to stay still for a second the next time i see him...^^
cute lil' Oscar...
hate the name though...lol...tacky...

-xoxo-

close my eyes and envision it...
a perfect life...
with perfect you...

Singleee

SS Single has docked!!
And Sarah will be going on board!!
Well unless the SS Dense Men docks and he gets off...
Then I'll join him...
Yes this means I WILL stay single until I completely forget about him...
Or he decides to answer to my unrequited love...
It would be nice if said something...
A no would be better than him being completely oblivious...
aiihhh...
This is why I always say men are idiots...
But hey I'm crushin on an idiot...
that makes more of an idiot...no??
haha...
I'm being awfully positive about this...
I'm so weird I scare myself...@~@
xDD

-xoxo-

I'll keep waiting for an answer...
Even if it take a lifetime...

Day 2 RANT!!

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
Mariah Carey- Butterfly

Currently addicted to this song...
It's really sweet...
It's kinda old though...
anywaysss...
Day 2 of my exams!!
English paper...
Paper 2 first...
okay lerr...
I completely forgot everything about the poem If though...
aiikkss ><
so yeah...messed up on that one...
Then paper 1 oivayy this one sure die dii...
Question one was okay...
everything was fine...
den i did question 2...
well the first essay i did was d one about love...
and coz i'm so free now I'm gonna type it out!!...wyeee...xDD

Question 2

"I LOVE YOU!!" Micheal shouted. That was the only thing Theresa remembered from her dream last night, if it was a dream, she couldn't be sure. Everything is so blurry, last night felt so real yet at the same time so impossible.

She had fallen for Micheal since she first met him,the first day of school. Too bad for her he was already dating someone at the time. They recently broke up and Theresa wondered why. She had always thought that they made a great couple, even though she likes him. She got her answer last night when Micheal confessed everything to her. He said it was because he couldn't get Theresa out of his mind and it drove his girlfriend, ex-girlfriend, crazy. That he had fallen inlove with her. HER! She still couldn't believe it, but there's no denying it. She could feel the love notes he gave her last night tucked in her pockets and distinctly remembered the warmth of his body from when he wrapped his arms around her body last night.

When she walked through the school gates he looked at her and smiled his dazzling smile, she blushed as a reply. He then walked towards her and kissed her on her forehead then put his arm around her waist. ...

I stopped there because I started thinking...
The last time I wrote a love story Zuraidah hammered me...
she'd sooooo hate this...
So I ended up writing another essay...It turned out horrible...
Then another and that turned out horrible as well...
So I just randomly picked onr and I pick the one on Good Leadership Qualities
I thought it would be easy...
But IDK why but I had writers block...
I had no idea what to write...
I ended up writing the dumbest sounding sentence ever!!
"A good leader has to have lots of good qualities or he will not be able to be a good leader"
A very stupid sentence...
The King of stupid sentences...
So I started again...
this time it turn out okay...
and i mean only okay...it actually sucked...but passable...
but halfway through the 2nd paragraph teacher went..."15 minutes left"
I was like HOLY COWW!!!
I got frustrated and started crapping again...
in the end...
I don't think I even reached 3 hundred words...
I'm so screwed!!!!!! ughhhh

-xoxo-

p/s my 1st essay is nice...I'm thinking I would make a good novelist...heheee

why does it hurt so bad...
I want to forget...
But I can't

On my mind...

I wake up every morning with you on my mind...
Rush to bed every night hoping to see you in my dreams...
I heard them say "Out Of Sight, Out of mind"...
I though to myself "How could this be true, as I hardly see you but you're always on my mind",
Everything you do can change my expressions drastically,
Even the slightest thing you do can change my mood,
You control my emotions,
Every time you say something the gears in my head moves faster than usual,
When our eyes meet you send electric waves through my veins...
Talking to you at night gives my sweet dreams...
Talking to you in the morning makes my day...
Just talking to you seems like a dream...
You are a Dream...
A dream come true...
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wyeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
this post was made completely with the intention of practicing for my english exam tomorrow...
bet you were wondering..."Who is she talking about!!??"
hehee...not bad huh??

-xoxo-

Not one second passes without you crossing my mind
And when you do...I'll wonder if I'm crossing yours...
Me and my unrequited love
A painful experience

Day 1

Day one of the result of the idiocy of our teachers...
Had BM exam today...
What can I say except...hate hate hate hate hate~~ ==
urghhh...
I swear it will be the death of me!!...
anywaysss...
we had BM paper 1 1st...
Bahagian A was okayyy...
Bahagian B was fine until I ran out of ideas...
then it was just..."Dammit Just randomly put words to increase the amount!!" xD
in the end I got 397 words for bahagian B...
it wasn't too bad I guess...
then after recess we had paper 2...
gawdd!!
I swear I will never ever ever even think of taking kesusasteraan Melayu in U...
KOMSAS is murder!!
I wanted to tear the paper!! eesshhh!!
then the rumusan...
crap! it was crap!!
and the worst part was...
When I was done with it...
I put my answer sheet at the corner of my table...
Pn. Sharifah looked at it and clicked her tongue and shake her head!!
SHE CLICKED HER TONGUE!!
LIKE I DIDN'T TRY TO UNDERSTAND HER WEIRD BRAIN THT GAVE US A WEIRD PASSAGE!!
arghh!!!
I had to read the same sentence at least 3 times before it can be processed in my head!!
And the words were so tiny and so close together it was impossible to read!!
Not to mention my contacts were starting to dry and irritating my eyes!!
arghh!!!!
finally the bell rang and the nightmare was over...phooieee...

Then after school...
My cousin picked me up...
I don't have piano lessons today coz my teacher has seminar or sumthin...
Soo...we went to her hse for awhile...
My aunt is taking care of the cutest little boy!!
He is supposed to be chinese but he looks malay lol...
maybe his mom was naughty...xDD
anywayss!!
He has these ginormous googly teddy bear like eyes!!
and he this the sweetest chocolate coloured skin!!
And his baby fats just made him even cuddlier!!
I actually asked my aunt if I could have him...lol lol
den went for lunch and came home...
Then I told my mom I'm to lazy for tuition today...
And the most amazing thing happened!!
She said Ok!!
I don't need to go for tuition today!!!
lolsss...
for those of you who don't know...
my mom is scary and is usually very strict about stuff tht involve my education or money...
but has been kinda lenient these days...
looovveee herrr...<3<3<3

-xoxo-

I always wonder if you feel the same way~~

Changes

Been listening to old songs from the 90s lately...
Reminiscing about the happy days...
Back when I was a kid and everything was easy...
When a song was just a tune with some words...
now to me a song actually means something...with or without words...
Everything seems different...
Even the songs from then...
I guess everything does seem different when you see it from a different point of view...
I realize how much things have changed...
How different things are now compared to then...
I realize how much I've changed...
How far I've traveled since then...
How much I've grown...
The variety of people I've met and befriended...
The people I love...
And the people I hate...
The people I laugh with and the people I cry with...
Each and everyone of us...different from when we first met each other...
I guess what I'm trying to say is...
Everyone and everything changes...
No one can stop it...
It's only a part of life...
So don't complain about changes...
Instead...
Embrace change and learn to live and love it...
If you don't...
Well...
You'll probably be a very bitter person...
Even then you still change...

xoxo

People change,
People forget,
Then they make new memories and embrace changes...
Whether you change for the better or the worse...
It's bound to happen someday...
So LOVE yourself,
And you'll know happiness~~

mind numbing boredom!!

ughh...
today has been by far the MOST boring day of all of my 15 years 11 months 14 days...lol
anyways the best new i got today...
I actually passed my piano exam!!! xDDD
IDK how but I did!!! wyeeeeeeeeeeeeee^^
God Bless Me!!
eventhough I barely passed...
I still did!! woohoo!!
okay...thats about it...
muahhahaha!!! I passed!! I passed!!
IN YOUR FACEmom !!!

To Ponteng Or Not To Ponteng??

eheh...
should I ponteng tmr??
I'm feeling suuuuuperr lazy!!
but but exam is on tuesday and my accounts is horrible!!
but if it's already horrible one class isn't gonna change anything riiiiteee...
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what to do? what to do? what to do??
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OMG!! I just remembered!!
I haven't pass up my moral!!!!
aiiikssssss :S
owh well guess she's just gonna have to wait...^^
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hmm...
wad else ahh...errr
owh ya! I didn't sleep at all in school today!!
Amazing rite!!...xDDD
hahaha...
during math pengetua came in...
I expected someone to come in already...
but didn't expect it to be d pengetua...
It was hilarious when everyone in class suddenly became so guai...xD
when the teacher said something we all responded politely and all together...haha
It was like we practiced being synch or sumthing lol
It was the 1st time ever the class was so guai...xD
funnii gilerr...hahaa
tmr supposed to have lisan...
but i haven't gotten my dialog from Cin :S
but like I said...I don't wanna go to school tmr...xD
okayy ending my post with something weird...
today i didn't get annoyed at Victor... :S scarryyy xDD

xoxo
lovessss

Samuelss~~

Recently I was talking to my friend...
and I mentioned Samuel...
and she was like which?...
We started counting the Samuels we know and well...
look at the list...
(these are the ones I know)
-Samuel Chen (Through Cammie)
-Samuel Chew (Through Max)
-Samuel Cheong (Through Trish)
-Samuel Lee (Online)
-Samuel Lum (School)
-Samuel Ong (Std5 Tuition)
-Samuel Teoh (Through Will)
-Samuel Wong (At Cammie's Party)
-Samuel Woo (Through Ash)
-Samuel Yong (At Cammie's Party)
-Samuel Young (Church)

*This Post has been completely random...lol lol*

xoxo
lovesss