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16/09/2010

Malaysia Day...=)

Also the day I walked to Pavilion...

Yes people...You read right...I WALKED to Pavilion...

Well me and my mom...=)

We planned to start early...when the Sun wasn't so high up...

buuuut...knowing me...

I slept in...

and so we started late...

after i woke up...

followed by a series of events...

we left the house and started on our journey...=)

We left at approximately 12.57 pm

We reached Pandan Jaya at approximately 1.13 pm

Then we stopped by the plant nursery...

...

Then we walked and walked until we reached Bukit Bintang...

Then we walked and walked and walked until we reached Pavilion at exactly 2.37 pm..=D

We went to eat at Tony Roma's and then...well I don't need to tell you what we did next...

duh...shopping!...=DD

Then we walked to Times Square and took The LRT home...=D

We reached home at approximately 6.50 pm...=D

Yay us!! It was an awesome day...=D

9/9/10-11/9/10

Thursday I went out with Cindel and Edward.

We went to KLCC...

The day started out like this...

I was having an awesome dream...

When all of a sudden I heard Paramore's "That's What You Get" blasting next to my ear!

Cindel woke me up...==

She was outside waiting...

we had tuition that day...

so I got out of bed and opened the gates for her...

she came in I took a shower teacher came we started tuition...

After tuition...

I changed and my mom fetched us to the LRT station...

yadayadayada...

at KLCC...

We had McD for lunch and then we went to the book fair...

I bought 3 awesome new books and a supremely cool black notepad...=D

and a dvd about a dog that got me bawling my eyes out!

after that we went and watch step up 3!! it so sooooooooo awesome!!!!!!!!

seriously!!!

after the movie we went back to the Convention Centre to meet up with cin's mom...

sadly...

Cindel got us lost..==

We had no idea how to get to the drop of point...

finally...we found out way...!! yayy?

and we got into the car and got back home...

=)

The End...

This is the most excitement I received since the holidays started...==

so rite?...==

The next day I went to my dad's friend's house for a raya open house...

The same one I go to every year...

as usual...

I'm the good smiling faced polite daughter...

Owh did I mention total hypocrite?

and den went to dad's fish farm...

he forgot the keys...==

so we went to the next door fish farm...it was kinda awesome...

and the air there was nice and cooling...

after that I went home and slept...=D

until 6pm then me and my mom went pasar malam...

I got a new alarm clock! it's so cute!!

den came home had dinner watched tv...

talked on the phone and went to bed...yay me?

xD

owhh of course not forgetting something important...

HAPPII BIRTHDAY ALLY!!!

17 NOW!!

ONE MORE YEAR TO ALMOST COMPLETE FREEDOM...XD

ENJOY!!

I don't want to lose my friend.

I found out that CYH has cancer 2nd stage today.

He posted it on his blog.

I'm so sad.

Even though I'm not close with him.

I feel so sad with the thought that there might be a chance, even if it's a small chance, to lose another friend.

I hope he'll get better fast...

May God be with him...='(

SBS SENIOR PROM

SBS Prom coming soon!!

22nd December!!!

I'm so excited weih!!

eventho' there are certain things that well lets just say alot of ppl aren't agreeing with...

BUT

it's my last year and the prom of MY batch...so i'll be thinking of it as my prom...

I intend to go and the most out of it!!!

and yes...I do tend to get pretty wild at social events revolving around teens...

but I intend to be on my best behavior...

for everyone's best interests! =)

< /3

Am I allowed to miss something... someone I promised myself to leave in the past? < /3

shhhh

shhh
i'm blogging in the school lab currently...><
i'm not supposed to...
but no one's watching soooo...><
heeeeeeee...
imma naughty girl...heheeeeee...xDD
neeewaayyss
i met 2 new friendss...
one is jason another is jacob...
their twins...
funny story how i met them tho...
it was because of starbucks...xD
it's a looooooong story sooo...
later la...xDD

I am so dead

I dropped my mom's phone into a pail of water...

BY ACCIDENT!

and now it's dead...

she's so gonna kill me...

I'm just waiting to die right now...

I'm so screwed...

I'm so scared of my mom...><

I'm so sorry mommy

please don't kill me...T.T

1-2-3

Count 1-2-3

whisper your secret to the wind

close your eyes and listen to it's reply

open your eyes and it's a whole new world.

Take a deep breath

Start a new journey

Change your course

Pray for clear weather.

This feeling at the pit of my stomach...

I wanna wash it all away...

I don't know what it is...

But I do know that I don't like it...

Music In The Air

*Kissin' You - Miranda Cosgrove*

=)

My legs and my butt hurt good!

xD I know how bad that sounds but it's true!!

I practically killed some of my fats at gym today...

and seriously...they hurt good...xD

especially my butt...ughh but good....xDDDD

smiles people! =))

I broke up with Vince yday...

It's no biggie since we didn't expect it to last more than a week...=/

but I'm starting to get interested in this other guy...

and I think thts pretty mean to Vince isn't it?? =((

he says it's fine and all...

that he's a player so he's used to it...

but i still feel bad...><

ughhhhhhh...=S

owh well...I'll just keep smiling! it'll probably get better if I do! =)

xoxo

Music in the air * California Gurls - Katy Perry feat. Snoop Dogg * =)

p.s. Going to MTV World Stage!!! Tee Hee!! =D

Waka Waka

am currently obsessed with the song...

You're a good soldier

Choosing your battles

Pick yourself up

And Dust yourself off

And back on the saddle

don't you think the lyrics are so meaningful??

i absolutely am entranced by it...=)

anywayssssss

moving on...

life has been a roller coaster lately

up down up down...

quite interesting really...

hmm...

owh yea...

Choir competition is in a few days...

nervous??

abit...

it'll probably escalate tho'

i haven't even gotten my clothes together...=x

oppsiiiee...hehehehe

yea so...

a question i wanna ask all of the guys out there...

have any of you ever thought of marrying your girlfriend or ex??

just a thought...=)

xoxo

Yes I'm Pissed!

I absofuckinglutely hate these kind of ppl...

jeesh...

I feel super insulted everytime i talk to him!

It's so bloody fucking annoying!

YES I'm pissed at you!!

SO GET A CLUE ALREADY!!

OMG!

If you want to un-piss me then get a freakin clue!!

Stop pissing me off more everytime I'm less pissed!!

What kind of IDIOT are you!!

If you just decide to live to piss me off then I suggest you FUCK OFF before I make you!

I apologized for snapping!

But I was still mad!

Whose fault was that in the 1st place!!??

But you decide to blow me off anyway!!??

Who The Hell do you think I am!!??

YOU wanted to make things right 1st didn't you!!??

I snapped!!

I said tht I AM SORRY!!

Wasn't it enough!

Bastard!! You are so anal!!

Go Fuck Yourself!!

Kai Gor??

hahaha

Joen Kuan Han-Yu is now my Kai Gor...

like officially...xD

look I have proof!!

xDDD

okay so I was being totally random when i asked him to become my kai gor...

who knew he'd agree?? xD

owh well...=)

it's 12.35 am now...and I should be sleeping...hehe

nitessssssssssss...=))

=0 new toy!

ahaha

I found a someone new I can play around with

hahas xD

I'm so not nice!

Back to Square One

After going through ups and downs...

I finally returned to where I was before...

After falling for so many guys...

dating so many guys...

gaining so much experience...

I decided I liked what I chose in the 1st place...

He's making me fall for him all over again...

I wonder...

is this good? or bad?

Saturday

it's a Saturday...
I'm bored...
at home...
eating cendol...
doing absolutely nothing...
I have no life...==

where are my friends when i need them...==

it hurts...

i'm hurting...
i don't know why...

OMGGGG

NOWAY!!

I just noticed!!

the top half of my post was missing!!...(I mean the post about D)

the bitching post...

so I shall type it here...

The post was a bitching about a guy...we'll call him D

which was a frigging ass...

especially to his girlfriend(not ex) C...

He gave her presents when they were dating...

now that they have broken up...

he asked for it back...==

and the thing is...

she tried giving it back to him before...

but he didn't want it...

but now he asks for it...

what kind of person is this??

And also...

this guy is a frickin attention seeker...

he loves attention so much he can encourage other girls to flirt with him...

eventho' he already has a gf...

but that is quite normal...

what isn't normal is that he can encourage the girl eventho' his gf is RIGHT INFRONT OF HIM!

so this and that happened...

and a scene raised...

he actually had the nerve to apologize to the girl for us!!

imagine that for us!!

we weren't even wrong!!

we felt so insulted!

what happened to respect!?

so yea we let it slide...

and again...

and again...

and again...==

____________________________________________________________________

okay...

I think this is all tht was missing...><

heeeeeee

xoxo

First round of bullets into the barrel...aim and BANG! BULLS EYE

C and D had this thing...

every 2 Fridays C and me will stay back in school...

then D will come see C...

so one of the fridays they were supposed to meet...

we had our enrollment...

for St. John...

and C told D not to come...

but D insisted on coming...

even after everyone said no...

he still insisted...

so C said fine...

come...

and since he was coming...

C brought her phone to school..

so that he can contact her...

when we were rehearsing for enrollment...

C phone got stolen...><

and when D found out he told her...

don't tell your parents!

so another one of our friend...RN

told him...

what do you mean don't tell her parents...

she HAS to tell them...

are you an idiot...

and he said to her...

no...

buy another phone den only tell...

RN got pissed...

I lashed out at him after that...

I asked him...

how could he say something like tht...

to tell his own girlfriend to do something so miserably stupid!

is he so dumb he didn't know it was wrong??

he said it was because he had a bad experience...

his friend lost his phone once..

and he told his friend to tell his parents...

but the friend fucked him up...

so he learned his lesson...

I got even more pissed after hearing that...

doesn't that just make him selfish!??

he know's something is wrong...

and he tells his gf to do the wrong thing just because he didn't wanna get yelled at!??

I couldn't stand him after that...

After tuition one day...

D left earlier...

Then C's dad picked us up form the centre...

we saw D walking while C's dad was driving...

and then all of a sudden...

D started chasing C's dad's car!

we were like OMG!!

does he think this is a movie!!??

C got really pissed!

because she just got told off by her parents for losing her phone...

then her bf(which she wasn't supposed to have) is chasing her dad's car!

she snapped and broke it off with him...==

These are the few reason's why my best friend C is now single...

there are more...

but if i take my time typing it all out...

I would probably be 80 when I'm done...

to summarize...

This guy...

is a childish idiot...

an ignorant fool...

good for nothing lying man whore...

Did I also mention that...

this guy...

he used his sister's number to pretend to be his friend...

and lied to C??

and that even after doing that he had the nerve to ask her why she didn't trust him!??

plus he doesn't respect people...

not just elders..

people in general...

he does things without considering other ppl...

says things only thinking of himself...

he speaks rudely to his teachers...

he took a guy's answers today...

(I did it last week but the other guy wasn't complaining plus I was self teaching)

in any case...

he can't even be called a human...==

okay done shooting...

hope u enjoyed my bitchings...=))

Blogging in school!!

MY SCHOOL HAS A CYBER CAFE!!! AWES-MAZING RITE!!!??
lolsss...
I only discovered this a few days ago...
this is the 1st time i'm using...
full house doh!!
okay so anywaysss...
reason for my post...

HAPPII BIRTHDAY DANIEL SYAAAAA!!!!! =DDDDD
Your old now...
but fortunately...
it also means ur gonna be able to drive soon!!
rmb to come visit me whn u can drive kayy...
we go yum cha...=))

Just finished my econs exam.
ugh...i fucked it up inside out weih!!
same as my add math paper...
hmm...
tht guy is such a jinx...
he told me not to sleep and i fell asleep...
he said sure cnt do den really cnt do...==
like wth laa...==

going nowww...=))

xoxo

Bitch

I became a bitch...

and i kinda like it...

and kinda hate it at the same time...

and the side note...

a kid flirted with me today...yuck...=p

today was HORRIBLE!

i HATE school after exam!!

you just want to sleep when the teachers start blabbering

arghh...

tht stupid "person" (yes it's a teacher)

i mean can he be even more rude ah?

fine i'm asleep

tak suka den wake me up la!

go bitch about me for wad!

wad kind of teacher is tht...!!

arghhh...

wtv

i'm going...

-xoxo-

if you ask really reaaallly nicely i MIGHT say yes...=)

so beg people beg!!...=)
___________________________________________________________________________________________________
so yeah...
randomness gotten over with...
and...
idk wad to do anymoreeee
life is so complicated!!!
daniel is a super bitch!!!!
not a shred of respect for cindel!!
i hope he burns in hell!!!
yes i'm evil and unbelievably cruel!!
I HOPE YOU READ THIS DAN!!!!!

New public blog

I made another blog for random stuff...=D
click [HERE] for the blog...=D

eh?

what is this feeling?

oh yea...

misery...

what am i doing?

i'm giving up on life...

screw it all...

screw life!

public

i changed my blog to public again...^^

Sleep

it is now 8.12pm and I am about to retire to bed now...

goodnight...

xoxo

nites

Gone With The Wind

Gone With The Wing, first published in May, 1936.

A romantic novel and the ONLY novel ever written by Margaret Mitchell.

Set in Clayton Country, Georgia and Atlanta during the American Civil War and Reconstrustion, this story follows the life of Scarlett O'Hara.

I've just finished the movie,

and it is just amazing! all 3 hours and 50 minutes of amazing...

The story is about a girl, Scarlett O'Hara, that was very popular with the men of the County.

At the age of 16 she truly believed she loved Ashley Wilkes but then she found out he was getting married.

She is convinced that the reason for his marriage is only because he doesn't know she loves him.

So she confessed her love to him, only to be overheard by Rhett Butler a very dashing and charming man that is shunned for his behavior but sometimes accepted for his charms.

After this scene, she agreed to marry Charles Hamilton, brother of Melanie Hamilton, the woman Ashley is supposed to marry and also Ashley's cousin, to save her reputation and make Ashley jealous, which failed.

when all the men have gone to war, a letter came saying that her husband had died of the measles, and Scarlett is left as a widow.

and...to make a long story short she married to men she didn't love, 1st to save her rep and make her lover jealous.

and the other to save her home Tara, also resulting in hurting her sister, as her 2nd husband is her sister's former beau(bf).

after her 2nd husband's death she finally marries Rhett Butler, they lived happily until her infatuation with Ashley takes over,

Then Scarlett had a miscarriage and their daughter died of a riding accident, heart broken Scarlett blames the also heartbroken Rhett that taught their daughter to ride.

Finally when Melanie dies Scarlett realizes her love for Rhett but he had fallen out of love for her. So he left her, leaving her in tears and she ends the movie/story with the infamous last line of the book. " Tomorrow is another day!"

OMG even making it short is still long!!

buuuuuut it's still amazing.

if you have the time read it, if not watch it.

this story is so sad...

I feel I can relate...eventho' it's set in the late 1800s.

The betrayal the passion the heartbreaking moments.

It's just amazing.

I'm gonna read d book now...=D

Depressed

I find that when I'm depressed I tend to blog more often...

Is it just me? or does it happen to everyone too??

So yea...

I've been feeling down...

and I don't think it's because of what happened before with Dan...

because I've been feeling down since way before...

tho dat didn't really make it any better...

why am i writing this??

because idk wad to do anymore...

and people stop asking me if it's pms...

coz it's not...==

I get frustrated easily,

I get sad easily,

I get angry easily,

I've just been an emotional roller-coaster lately...

Idk la...

maybe I'm just being too sensitive...

but I'm feeling like how I used to again...

maybe it's the exam stress coming on to me...

I should study...

I really should...

I really do try...

but um...

I don't think it's working...

aiih...

am just ranting...

get on with life...

ignore me...=p

xoxo

stupid cow!

you cow!!

stop acting like such a cow you cow!!

A whole new world

Yes...
A Whole New World...
As in the Aladdin theme song...
It is currently stuck in my head...
like I can't get it out...
It keeps replying only at the chorus...
I'm getting bored of it...
It's gonna drive me mental soon...
____________________________________________________________________

I told C this...

and he said...

hey wasn't that our song?...==

seriously??

that was our song??

we had a song??

really??

gosh...

me memory ish shooo horrible...=S

xoxo

this has been a random post.!

Sorry!!

To Daniel Chong...
I'm so so sorry...
I feel completely and utterly horrible...
I am a completely and utterly horrible person...
so can u please please forgive this completely and utterly horrible person??
I'm so so sooooooo very very very sorry!
I really don't know what else to say besides sorry...><
So I'll just keep saying sorry...
because I really really honestly,cross my heart, am so so sorry...
I know this sounds selfish...
but please please...don't stay mad...
I'd feel really really bad...
I'm so so sooooo sorry...

xoxo

Sarah

p.s. I'm sorry I'm such a bitch that I remind you of her...><

close your eyes and count to 3

When I was a kid

There was this one girl at my kindergarten.

She had the same name as me (Xiao Juin NOT Sarah)

but unlike me she was always gloomy

so one day I asked her why was she always sad.

She said she's not...

it's just that she was too shy to make friends and she doesn't have anyone to play with...

so I told some of my friends to come over and we played together...

we became best friends...

One day I cut my finger with a pencil sharperner (don't ask me how...i don't rmb)

And I didn't cry but my teacher saw d blood and a small foldable blade in my pencil case...

She immediately thought i use the blade and accidentally cut myself...

I got yelled at for bringing a blade and I started crying...

my best friend comforted me and told me not to cry...

then she told me to close my eyes...

after awhile she asked me to count to 3 then open...

I opened my eyes and everyone was holding candies for me...

____________________________________________________________________

Remember when we used to laugh because it was funny

and not because you didn't wanna hurt the other person's feelings?

Remember when we can be honest to each other

and not worry what the other would think?

Remember when everyone would easily agree on helping you

and NOT ask for something in return??

Remember when we can all sit together and play,

and not care if the other is Fat or Thin or Ugly?? (no offence)

Remember when we's get so excited

just for ONE piece of chewing gum?

Remember when we'd stick books up during exams so no one could see our answers

but in actual fact we're looking at the answers??

Don't you miss those days?

The days we can laugh, cry and tease each other

with no hard feelings conceived.

The days when we don't even know of the word F*ck

and the word stupid was a MAJOR crime.

The days when the word graduation didn't even come to mind?

Days when you couldn't even pronounce graduation...lol

I miss those days...

So much...

Today when I'm scared or am sad...

I still close my eyes and count to 3...

and even until today,

it never fails to calm me down...

am doing it now...

thunder is crazy loud...><

Depressed

Feeling depressed today I find it hard to even smile...
And smiling is wad I do best...=(
dunno wads wrong with me...

changed my mind

my private blog will still exist!...yayyy...lol
but this blog will also stay private...
the other one is now my super secret blog...^^
yayy...lol
okay i'm weirding myself out now...bye byee...^^

xoxo

Pavillion...Daniel...Movies...Starbucks...Dan's Stalkers...blah blah

I cannot believe how early i slept last night...

well...went to bed...

I just couldn't go to sleep!!...

anywaysss...

I woke up surprisingly early this morning...

didn't even need a wake up call...

and then showered and well took about forever to choose my outfit...

then settled on jeans and a shirt...==

put on a little make up den waited for Joyenn to come...

at 11 Daniel called and asked where I was...

he was at Pav. already... ><

so i told him I was still at home...><

hehe...

well anyways...

was a little tweensy weeeny bit delayed...

coz Joyenn's mom didn't believe the existence of Pandan Indah Lrt...

and the ended up at Cempaka station...lol

yea so anywaysss...

Joyenn arrived with Ree Na picked Cindel up and yada yada yada reached Pav...

went to digi 1st...den Daniel found us...^^

went to Pizza Hut...and Joyenn's shoe broke...==

sooooo I went walking around...looking for super glue for her...

while everyone else waited at P.H.

came back ate waited for Bryan...

it was soooo funny... when he arrived...

well...

some stuffss happened and well it was hilarious...

Joyenn was guessing underwear colour and Daniel was being all fidgety...lol

after eating...

we went up up and up together...untilll...

me and Jo sawy Forever 21...lolss we just HAD to go in...

camwhored alittle and went to Parksons to look for Eva...

she's sooooo cute! lols...

got the tickets and...Lo and Behold...Edward Hew bought the wrong time...==

sooo we traded ours and got to watch From Paris with Love...

Ratings for the show...4 stars...^^

2 for the SEXY Jonathan Rhys Meyers

1 For the FUNNY John Travolta...

and 1 more for well...the show...xD

after the show...we bought starbucks and walked to forever 21...again...xD

Cindel and Ree Na had Ice Cream outside...

den Jo dragged Bryan n I dragged Dan in with us...lol

um after a series of events...I went to the toilet n come out with killer intent...

friggin brat was crying like crazy...

if it was my kid...

i would've slapped the thing already...==

after that we sat at d ice-cream place for a while chatting and laughing and everything...

then we walked to TS...me Cin and Dan walked to d LRT while Jo and Ree Na waited for Bryan...

on the way... these 2 girls kept looking at Dan...

so me and Cin kept teasing him...

it was sooo funny...

and surprisingly...

they got into the same train as us...

then Dan got off his stop...

and when Cin got off her stop...one of the 2 girls the Pink one followed her off...

then when I got off the Yellow one followed me off...

it was kinda hilarious...

coz well...it was like dey were stalking us bcoz we were talking to Dan...lol lol...

and anyways got home bathe...blah blah...and the end...

btw this post...

you didn't really have to read...

I was just really bored and wanted to replay my day...^^

owhh and Nicholas asked me to go out on Friday...

Go see the Slideshow on HOW TO MAKE MONEY...lolsss...

I pray someone will go with me...

I wanna call cin...

but she dun like him and she probably cnt go out anymore...

so I called Dan...

hopefully he can go...

if not I'll call Jo...

if really cnt...

den I can't go...><

coz well...I don't wanna go alone...hehe...><

owhkay craping-

xoxo

Just Being Sarah

Sarah wants to be Sarah...

but what is Sarah?

Sarah's head hurts...

Sarah feels down...

but how to show it she don't know...

She just knows to to smile...

Smiling is healthy...but it's stupid to...

especially when it's the only thing u know how to do...

stupid...

useless...

and i close my eyes,

and try to picture something,

and i see your smile,

and i know mine it'll never be.

-sarah-

I have a new friend...

his name is daniel...

he is cute...i guess...

he plays the guitar writes songs and poems...

and is a st.john member...

he is as lame as can possibly be...

and somehow still very cool...

when he read this he's gonna be so bangga...

coz I said he's cool...xDDD

Quote of the day:-

Smiles are good for health.

-Sarah Ng-

OMG

OMG!
Cute
Cute
Cute
Cute
Cute
FYI it ain't a guy i'm talking abt...
it's a kid my aunt is taking care of...
damn monster boss...
she is stubborn, loud, screechy and FULL of pride...
buuuuuuuut...she's shooooo cute!!
kinda reminds me of me...
but screechy-er
anywayshh...
she's so pretty...
so fair...
and such rosy cheeks...><
i just loveee messing with her...
lolll...

xoxo

p.s. there actually is a guy...=p

privatized

my private blog will soon be shut down

and i'll make this blog private...

if you wish to continue viewing this blog

please send me your e-mail address...

thank you

xoxo

120210

Today we celebrated an early birthday for En. Nik! ^^
It was sooooooo fun!
We did it during recess...
We invited En. Khairol and his job was to get En.Nik to class...
And the excuse he used??
"Foo den Hafeez bertumbuk di kelas!!"
And En.Nik ran all the way to our class...hehe...

and we took picsss^^...
but I'm waaaaayy too lazy to upload it...
so go facebook see...=p
anywayssssss...

yea so after that we got trigger crazy and took pictures like a million times...
and we were taking pics with Jean the painting on the wall...lols
and with the hand art...
and just about any fun thing u could do in class...^^
5 Jati (2010) rox!
I can't believe it's our last year already...
We should do this again...
and maybe after graduation we can get together and throw another party...^^

xoxo

060210

That summer radio
Fireworks off the patio
A 3 AM string of green lights in a row
And the real thing
Love can change anything
If you can just let go
-Real Thing, Boys Like Girls-

free starbucks!!
thanks Rocky^^ heheee

so many things happened...
and everyone is depressed...
what happened to us?
when did we become so emotional??
when did we start becoming magnets for problems?

-Cindel-
I went for my eng. lit. class today...
I learned a poem...
and I realized how you feel...
I'm soo sorry I never noticed before this...
I have no right to talk to you like that...
The me who has never really loved...
Is not the person that should talk about things like forgetting...
I don't know how you have been feeling and I've been so insensitive saying idiotic things...
You loved...and you are trying to forget...
I shouldn't condemn you for not being able to forget...
I don't even know if I'll be able to forget when I actually love and lost...
so I'm sorry...

-Emily-
I'm sorry as well...
saying insensitive things...
doing stupid things...
I have no right...
if you love/like him den you do...
what right do I have to condemn you?...
I'm sorry for being insensitive and stupid...
I don't know how you feel so I shouldn't question you...
for someone like me...
who has absolutely no experience in that area...
I who have said so many things senselessly...
This person is so sorry...


I know I haven't been a good friend...
I hope you won't take it to heart...
I hope you,
both of you'll forgive me for all I've did...
I know you guys are probably not mad right now...
but I feel like I still should apologize...

TO YOU...you know who you are...
you ask me how I feel?
do you honestly need me to answer that??
I told you already...
repeatedly again and again...
and I asked u a million times if you were sure...
but you still wanted to go along with it...
you agreed to go along with it...
you were the one that wanted to help me...
it was YOUR plan...
don't blame me now...
I'll not apologize for it...
I'll not say it's no one's fault...
because I know you wouldn't want me too...
I told you it wasn't a good idea...
but you said it was...
and now you want me to be held responsible for this?...
I'm sorry you misunderstood...
but you shouldn't have...
We've made it clear long before all this started...
I don't want this friendship to end just like that...
but I don't want it to be a forced one either...
so hate me if you must...
because the person I befriended wouldn't do anything for no good reason...
so if you do hate me...
your reason must be pretty great huh???
I know this incident probably left a scar in you...
and I'm sorry that it did...
but it's not my fault...
and you know it isn't...
but I will apologize for this...
I'm sorry that I cannot give you the answer you want...
I'm sorry I didn't notice it sooner...
and I'm sorry we're not talking...
I hope we can get this past us...
we've been through a lot...
let us get through this too...
I don't need your apology...
I don't want it...
I just want you to try and get through this...
So call or text me if your ready to reconcile...
cause I know you want to just as much as I do...
I know you don't want to hear me say sorry so I won't...
because you know...
I'm not sorry...
but neither am I happii...
and you should know why better than anyone else...
I'm sorry for doing what I did...
I like you...
but not like you like me...
and I love you...
but not like that...
and we both know I'm not for you...

thinking

i've been thinking abt what she said...
wht did she mean by cheat?...
damn if i explain tmr i wonder if she'll believe??
aiih how i wish my reactions were faster...==

For school mag.

Okay so I got Kah Kei to let me do the class page for the school magazine this year...^^
wyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
so anyways, I was thinking of putting a short 4 lined poem or something along the lines of that.
so I have a few lines already.
mind reading through and help with some thoughts on it?...

As we look forward,
We see a bright light.
And as we make our journey,
You guide us through obstacles.
-Thank You-

As we tread the paths to our future,
We look to our side,
And you are always there,
Guiding us.
-Thank You-

Look Forward,
Charge to the Unknown,
Using Wisdom,
We received from you.

-xoxo-

p/s. please comment and/or vote...^^ 1st 2nd or 3rd...please and thank youu...

1st day of school

HELL...

-xoxo-

btw my prayers didn't work...awwww...

January 4th 2010

It is now5.30 in the morning...
I woke up at 2.30...
yup...you didn't read wrong...it's 2.30 in the morning...
I just couldn't sleep some how...
tried and tried and tried...but somehow i just couldn't...
so I just lied in my bed until 4 am...
then took a shower...
ironed and re-ironed my uniform...
lied down again...
got up...
drank yogurt...
and read through blogs...
ughh...
I think I'll be sleeping in school on the very first day...><
There goes my resolution...
Lets all pray I stay awake^^...
now 5.32...
Still thinking if I should bring my roxy bag and use it as a book bag...
owhhhh...
I gotta cut my fingernails!!...
almost forgot...><
well will blog again after school!!...^^

-xoxo-

1st day of school...I hope it turns out great...^^
Pray for a Hot New Guy in Form 5 Jati class!!!...xD
Haha

Hellooooo 2010!!

2010 [press start]
(credits to Joseph Teng)

It's 2010 already...
time passes too fast...
it seems like it was just yesterday when we were fighting to get out of science stream...lols

Anyways '09 was a great year...
I made lots of choices...
some good and some bad...
Lots of mistakes that were...eventually fixed...
but either way...
I regret nothing...
It has brought me to where I am now...

Thinking back there were many sad and depressing times...
But we (me and friends) persevered...
We helped each other out in times of need...
We try our best to make each other happy...
But we also hurt each other at times...
During these times things are really complicated...
So we try to fix things...
And well...I guess it turned out great...

I learned a lot in the past year...
I learned to trust more...
I learned to I open up more to people...
And people opened up to me more as well...
I learned to never regret anything...
because even if I did...
what is done is done and cannot be undone...
I learned to control my mouth that likes to shoot off...(tho' I'm still not very good at it)
I learned that a smile can go a long way...
I learned that a compliment can make someones day...
and that an insult can ruin it as well...
I learned to smile even through the hardest of times...
because a smile really can make you feel better...
I learned that making someone happy can make you happy as well...
I learned that by hurting others you hurt yourself even more...
and well lots more...

This year...
I'm hoping to learn even more...
cause well...we never really stop learning...
so hello 2010 and goodbye 2009...

-xoxo-

the memories and lessons I have gained will always be with me...
forever and ever...