BBGS(2) Last Yearbook

Recently while cleaning out the study room I found my old yearbook...

From when I was 7...

Looking through it I noticed how different we looked from back then...

I don't have pigtails anymore...

ALOT of people slimmed down...

Quite a few grew in size as well...
How nice If we all can go back to how we were then and fix our mistakes...
Anyways...just reminiscing...>.<

Currently my favorite song...
why?? Coz I can relate...

Friday night beneath the stars
In a field behind your yard
You and I are paintin' pictures in the sky
And sometimes we don't say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

Just a small town boy and girl
Livin' in a crazy world
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true
And I don't try to hide my tears
The secrets or my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me
You say that you can't live without me

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

When I'm with anybody else, it's so hard to be myself
Only you can tell

That I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
the other half I'm only trying to let you know
that what I feel is true

And I'm only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you
With you

Uh huh
Yeah

-xoxo-

I can't be me anymore...
Coz ur hardly ever there for me nowadays

Would You Hate Me If I Said I've Actually Been In Love With You All This Time??

I have a friend...
despite all the guys I have had a crush on...
He is still my number one...
problem is he doesn't know it...
And I can't let him know...
Cause I don't know how he'll react...
What if we can't be friends anymore??...
I don't want that...
I'm writing this in tears...
Why??...
I don't know...
PMS i guess...
Suddenly talking about him to Ephraim probably triggered it...>.<
I feel so stupid...
Why are men so dense!!?? >.<
How can he not realize??...
After so fucking long...
How can he make me so happy and so sad at the same time...??
How can he talk to me so casually when I'm a nervous wreck!...??
How can he make me want to laugh and cry...??
How can he just not care sometimes!...??
Does he not know it crushes me...??
How can I Love and Hate him at the same time...??
How can I let myself feel this way...??
How can I be so stupid...??
How can I let him through just like that...??
arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-xxxx-

I've gotta set myself straight...
Know that a "we" with him is impossible...

Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield

My blog's current song is kinda ironic 'cause well it's a blog...
so how can it be unwritten rite??...
but I think it's really meaningful cause it's like...
everything is controlled by me...
I write what come next... So yeah here's the lyrics...

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

p.s. NTV7 also uses it...at least I think it's NTV7...=S

My mom's benz is a portable sauna and LEE MING CHAU IS A COW!!

I was gonna post abt how hot my moms benz is but now i'm too pissed...
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!STUPID!!
LEE MING CHAU IS A STUPID COW!!!!!!!!!!!

The Stupid Cow is Stupid Because he makes me laugh even when I'm pissed at him...><
resulting in me...
not being able to stay pissed...><
Lee u cow...

Blogging from d iPhone

okay this is hard i'll just wait till i get home...

New Game!

So maybe dating C did come to some good...
getting embarrassing pictures of him sleeping!!^^
thanx to tht...
me and cam has a chauffeur!!
and this is d game...
whoever gets the most numbers of cute guys...*cellphone numbers*...in two weeks...
can rule the chauffeur *C* for until dey go back to d States!!^^
and I think I'm winning!!...^^
I got Ephraim's number...
his is my 18th since wednesday...^^
haha...
i feel evil and all...
but hey...it ain't all that bad...><

An Ideal Feature?...

Someone once asked me what I want in a guy...
well...like every other normal human being...I said...
Someone who understands me and will be able to connect easily with me...
Someone who cares about making me happy...
And someone who can trust me and whom I can trust...
but now I'm thinking...
who the hell is that deep!!...
I want a cute guy!!!...xDD
well besides all of the above...
it would be nice if he is a little conceited but when around me will be humble...
a guy that can feel comfortable and at the same time uncomfortable around me...
and me him...
and yes...being the usual weird me...I do have a feature I like that others usually wouldn't take notice of...><
But I can't mention it here...because...well it's weird...><
btw it's nothing perverted if any of you think that...
it's a pretty obvious feature...
kind of like hidden in plain sight for every other human being...
but somehow... it just jumps out to me...
yes I'm weird like that...><
um lemme give u guys an example...
a not so cute guy has a very cute *insert fave feature here* I would probably get attracted to him...
without even knowing y...and everyone else will wonder as well...=S
a hot guy has a not so cute *insert fave feature here* I would probably be repelled by him...
again without even knowing y...and everyone else will wonder as well...
yes that is how much it affects me...I'm weird...I know...
hehee just wondering if it happens to everyone else too??...
If it does...stop making me think I'm weird and tell me...><
okiie dokes...I shall go torture my loved ones now...TTFN...^^

-xoxo-

p.s. this post...is NOT random...but it is random to post it up...tee hee

it came!!
I'm so happii I thought the worst!!
I'm so glad!!
And I'm still so excited about what happened yday...^^

><

aww aww awww...
Idk if I should go for Daphne's party on the first...
I do wanna go...
but at the same time i don't??
Owh dear...
I'm confusing myself...><

anywaysss...
ahhhhh so happii...><
why??...*secret* hehehehe ><
hahahhah....
muahahhaa...
hahaahahah...
I'm so happii I can only laughh...xDDDD
hahahahahaaaha...
I'm weird...lol lol...

-xoxo-

I have a great reason to b happii this time...
and hahahah...
omg!! I am overjoyed!...ecstatic!!
I feel like I'm gonna explode!!
ahhhhh!!!!!!!xDD

Hacked

me thinks someone hacked me's blog...=S

Oooo

today is friday...
today was supposed to be the last day of school...
knowing me...
I obviously didn't go...
owh well...
it's just another day...><

-x0x0-

currently obsessing on him...
him him him...
thats all I can think of...
I make a lousy secret love...
can't hold it in...><

Floatin' or Fallin'??

People start to think they are falling in love at any given point of life...
What is that all about anyway?...
Recently, around a month or two back?, I wrote a post about Love...(click to see it)
Yea so after sounding so pro-like back then...
I'm starting to wonder again...
Really what is it...
What if love isn't really love...
and it's really actually just another illusion created from all of out humanly wants and needs...
what if the perfect illusion isn't so perfect and it crashes right when we need it the most...
If you're also wondering why I'm full of questions...
It's cause I just woke up with all these questions flooding my mind...
Why you ask??What kind of dreams did I have...??
Truth is I don't know...==
how crappy...xp Why can I never remember my dreamsss...
O.O okayy I wavered away from my topic...
Okay so back to where I was...
What if falling in love isn't as great as it sounds...??
People like to fall in love...
but don't they realize that when falling you're bound to hit the ground and crash sooner or later?...
Love isn't a carnival ride where once it goes down it will bounce back up again without hurting you..
It's something that's so hard and intense...
just being around it can crush your insides...
so why do people want it so much??
is it really just for the floating feeling you get before you realize you're falling??
is it really all just for the floating feeling??
recently I felt that floating feeling again...
I noticed the symptoms and decided I should stay grounded..
Since well...
if you float you're bound to fall sooner or later...
like a balloon running out of helium...
yikess...
now I'm going science...eeeeessssshhh...
okay okay...
I have filled my needs for today...
I'm gonna do something now...IDK wad yet...
*blinks*
wad to dooooo!!!??? Owh i know I'll rot...
bored...
rots...
before turning into a complete pile of ashes...she hits post!!...O.O...
okay lame...but so what!?? don't like it?? SUE ME...=P

-xoxo-

I don't want to continue floating into oblivion...
the person I'm floating for...
I hope he holds me grounded...
so I won't float away den fall and kill everything...><

hmmm...

ahhh...
ummm...
ehhh...
errr...
So what's my glitch again??...=S

-xoxo-

why do i keep falling for the same people over and over??
xp...
i'm stuupid

Oooo...

Owh there's something I'd like to post...
ahem ahem...
it's about a girl and everything a bunch of us hate abt her......
why am i posting it??
coz i feel like being a bitch...=p...

1. Bitchy
   
2. Fatt Hau
3. Pan Cute
   
4. Selfish
5. 8 poh
6. Assumes people will do everything she says...
7. "Puteri Lilin"
8. Bad Taste
9. Annoying
10. Liar "A Great Story-Teller"
11. 2 Faced...sorry...Many faced...
12. Likes to betray her friends...
13. A Fake Friend...
14. Back Stabber...
15. Always look for trouble...and creates problems...
16. Loves criticizing everyone...
17. Always compare...
18. Gets Jealous easily...
19. Attention seeker...okay more like Attention begger...
20. If go shoppe with her...forces people to buy things...
21. Assumes everyone is just as rich as her...
22. Drama Queen
23. Insensitive...
24. Too Look concious...
25. Greedy
26. Expect people to wait for her...
27. Never Early
28. Cnt Keep a Secret to save her life...
29. Always thinks she's right...
30. Copy Cat...
31. Show off...But got nth to show...
32. Takes credit for sumthin someone else did...(not all d times...only sometimes...)
33. Nvr Helps her friends...
34. Doesn't appreciate her friends...
35. Doesn't mean wad she says...
36. Cnt keep promises
37. Always assuming...(lol)
38. Naive
39. Sohai...umm
40. swallows her self in pity...
41. Makes use of people...
42. Puts her bf above her friends...
43. She's allowed to be wrong...but we're not
44. She MUST know our secrets but she won't tell us hers...
45. Easily angry...Hot Head (for the dumbest most selfish reasons)
46. Involves us in her problems...
47. Likes to Nag
48. Bossy
49. In a team...She doesn't work...
50. Lazy
51. No team Spirit...
52. Gives up fast
53. Super Duper Perasan
54. Last minute decide-r
55. Always changes her mind...
56. Likes to FFK
57. Like to take other ppls things...
58. Thinks she's very high class...
59. stingy
60. likes to bitch abt ppl...(yes i know thts wad i'm doing but owh well...)
61. smart alec
62. likes to expand and exaggerate stories...
63. Always force ppl to do things even if they said no...
64. ACTING...<>
65. so think but still goes on diet...(unintentionally/intentionally makes us feel bad)
66. Lousy Fashion sense...
67. Lousy judgement
68. Cheapskate(takes advantage of everything tht involves money)
69. Thinks she very popular
70. Likes to crap
71. Disgusting at times...
72. Tak tahu malu...thick skinned
73. Kills mood
74. Likes to drag ppl around treating dem like a dog
75. Very dependent
76. Childish but acts mature...
77. Pampered...
78. Force ppl to lie for her sake...
79. Party spoiler...Fun Killer
80. Potong steamer...lol
81. Dumbo> Dumb ass> Dumb F*ck...=)
82. Scaredy Cat
83. Always disobey her parents....(not my problem...but hey)
84. Always complain abt bf but sticks to him like super glue...
85. Doesn't get it when people say no!...still keep pestering the person...
86. Possessive
    
87. Like to push the blame to others
88. Unfair
89. We are all 65% sure she ain't a virgin...
90. Like to flirt with other ppls love interest eventhough she has a bf...(yes tht includes her friends love interest...)
91. Never admits her mistakes
92. Threatens people...
93. She makes other ppl believe lies...
94. Judges other ppl w/o judging her self 1st
95. hypocrite x (infiniti)
96. Makes problems den avoids dem...
97. Must have everything her way...
98. Clingy
99. Perverted, Cheap <<>
100. Everything about her!!

okay I realize some repeats...
but hey...we were trying to reach 100 lol...
and yes...I wasn't the only one who contibuted to this list..=p

Didn't realize a guy can be such a bitch... and more...

So anyways there's this guy...
the faggot...
how bitchy can he get...
how can someone be so full of himself...
and not realize that practically everyone around him hates him...
ughh...he's disgusting...
so yeah lets all forget about the faggot coz thats wad he is...
a faggot...doesn't deserve a second of our attention...
not even worth being thought of...
so why am i writing about him??...
wasting my precious time...
well thts okay i have plenty to spare...(what am i talking about??...==)

okayyy so yea i haven't been blogging alot...
been lazy...=(
that and Lai took forever to gimme back my laptop after he reformatted it..

anywaysss...we did something fun on saturday...
we went to times square to celebrate a belated bday for cin!!...yayy
met a few ppl...
jason kelvin lam and jin...
I learned 2 things...
Jason can sing...
and Yin Ru CANNOT drink...lol
actually 3 things...
I must never ever sing again when i have a cold...
stupid stupid me...

Oh btw...
feeling wayy exposed rite now...
arghhh...stupid ephraim...xp

owh umm...
GOOD LUCK ALL SPM-ERss...^^

Halloween and Exam...scaryyy (story)

sooo...

yday was halloween...

Cam and C came back for the month...

they'll be leavin' in the third week of Nov...

well...

as most people know...

They loooovveee parties...

Thus...

a pre-halloween and halloween party was made...==

pre-halloween was on the 30th...my sisters bday...

*was supposed to go to school that day...but...well lets just say imma bad girl...*

so yeah...

my sister's bday so couldn't have the party at nite...

so they threw it in the afternoon...

meaning...pool party!!...^^

it was just a small thing for us...

like a reunion...

we were doing face painting and stuff...

and kent went and painted his body...

it took him forever to paint it...

it actually looked like he was wearing something...

that is until C , Max and Ash threw him into the water...

haha den he realli did look like a monster...

I didn't take any pictures though...TT

C did but well he used his SLR instead of the DSLR...

so we have to wait for the boss to wash the pics...==

and it's gonna take him FOREVERRR...

so yea...that nite they came over and we did each others make up...

practicing for the party...

owh no wait...

not each other...

I was doing the make up...==

and well costumes were Cams department...

IDK where she gets those things...

supposed to go to a party with joyenn...

but my mom said no...

so I ended up going to their party...

and yes...like last year...

everyone got drunk and so I had to suffer a very awkward ride home with Marco...==

Marco has low alcohol tolerance so he doesn't drink at all or he faints...

I can drink alcohol...but don't particularly like it...

so we were the only 2 sober people left in the hse...==

so very very awkward...

why wassit awkward??...ask me yourself...

so yea...

party was fun...

went home at around 2-3...

anywayss...

I've been meaning to post this up...

it's a story we made up in school the other day...

coz we were mega bored!!

btw...

it is completely fictional...!!

nothing is real!!

Girl stripped herself nakedly in public
everyone stared at her
including Cute guy
it was actually Other Girl's face
Cute guy feels stimulted because Other Girl's face does not match Girl's body

then Cute guy took a photo
Girl approached Cute guy and hugged him
but Cute guy pushed Girl away and slapped her
Girl went home crying
when she reached home, she saw Other Girl n Boy on the bed naked
Girl pulled Other Girl away and blind-folded Boy and raped him...

with a cucumber...==
Boy commited suicide

Boy's GF got angry and got into a fight with Girl
the next day, Girl raped Other Boy
instead of Other Boy commiting suicide,Other Boy's GF commited suicide
Other Girl feels bad for creating this story so she killed herself
when Other Boy's GF was in heaven, she saw Mother raping ex-Father on a cloud
all of a sudden Dreamer woke up and it was her best dream ever...

The Story is COMPLETELY fictional...

names have been hidden for certain reasons...^^

p.s. exams tmr...><