Tag...coz I'm bored... Imma horrible person...xDDD

Tag 10 people after you're done!
(one point for each one).
1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
MY TOTAL: 5

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
MY TOTAL: 9

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. received a ticket.
6. been to rehab
7. dyed your hair.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar
MY TOTAL: 4

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
MY TOTAL: 6

1. dressed gothic
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
MY TOTAL: 6

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
MY TOTAL: 6

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
MY TOTAL: 7

1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
MY TOTAL: 4

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
MY TOTAL: 9

GRAND TOTAL: 56...xDDD
If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [im average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [im a bad kid]
If You Have More Than 40...write [im a bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [im a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [i should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70..Write [i should be dead]

ummm...
anyone....lol

Certain People...and surprising fact...

I'm throughly convinced that everyone exist for a reason...
That everyone in this world exists for each other...
That all our fates criss crosses in some way...
And some people...SOME PEOPLE...
Exists to be hated...
Yea I said it...!!
Some people exists to hate and be hated back...
These are the people that find happiness...
When they sabotage and destroy other peoples hopes and dreams...
Yea...I know...
Sounds a little exaggerated ryte??
But I know people like that...
People that love them they treat wonderfully...
People that they don't like or doesn't like them...
They sabotage and make life hard for the people...
Anyways lets not talk about that...

Today I learned something...
I learned that tough we are all in form 4 already...
we still watch dumb cute funny shows...lol
> Pink Panther...
> Pokemon
> Digimon
> Doremon
> Powerpuff Girls
> Tom and Jerry
and many many more...
But I found out something daaaaaaaamn surprising...
while we were talking...
Ah Foo said..." I like to watch that show...the spy one...The three girls"
Then Kar Yan said " TOTALLY SPIES AH!!??"
Ah Foo replied"Yalar that one!"
Then Kar Yan said "That 1 girl show worr!!!!"
so there...
I learned...FOO KUO QIAT LIKE WATCHING LITTLE GIRLS CARTOONS!!!...XDDDDDD

Having the blues...

I'm feeling sad...
I want to tell someone but I don't know who...
I wanna cry but I don't know how...
I just want it all to go away...
I know how you feel em...
And I'm sorry for being so straightforward...
but I had too...
And like I said...
I know how you feel...
And I'm trying my hardest too...
so don't give up kay??
We're not just here to worry about you...
We're also here to support you!!...
Good Luck!! Gambateh!!

Sick

I'm sick...=(
awwww...
the good part...
my mom unground me out of sympathy...YAY!!
but then again...I can't look at d pc so long or I'll feel like puking...

aiih

I can't believe something like that happened...
if someone so high up on authority can treat someone under his charge like that...
how can we ever feel safe...
We look up to these authoritive figures expecting them to look out for us...
Little did we know that they are of the most danger to us...
one small mistake may even cost us our lives...
If not injuries that may cost us our future...
I'm not mentioning any names...
But I'm pretty sure most people will know what I am talking about...
Anyways my friend gave me this link...
apparently someone beat me to blogging about school violence...
this is just an example...I'm not pointing fingers...
look...click here

random...Kristy are you doing okay? lyrics and my interpretation

There’s a moment in time
And it’s stuck in my mind
Way back, when we were just kids

Cause your eyes told the tale
Of an act of betrayal
I knew that somebody did

Oh, waves of time
Seem to wash away
The scenes of our crimes
But for you this never ends

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away

Though the marks on your dress
Had been neatly repressed
I knew that something was wrong
And I should have spoke out
And I’m so sorry now
I didn’t know
Cause we were so young

Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind

anyone knows d meaning of this song??...
I just happen to think of it at the time...
the words...sound so sad...
this is what I got from the song...

lyrics
...
meaning...ok??


There’s a moment in time
And it’s stuck in my mind
Way back, when we were just kids ...
loooooong ago when we were young...duh obvious...

Cause your eyes told the tale
Of an act of betrayal
I knew that somebody did
...
There was a secret u were keeping...
u were betrayed..blah blah another obvious part...

Oh, waves of time
Seem to wash away
The scenes of our crimes
But for you this never ends
...
After so long
all should've been forgotten...
but u still hurt because of this secret...

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying To get back what was taken away
...
1st 3 lines obvious laa...
den...
Still living in the past...
this secret has kept u...
What is lost is lost...

Though the marks on your dress
Had been neatly repressed
I knew that something was wrong
And I should have spoke out
And I’m so sorry now
I didn’t know
Cause we were so young
...
There were signs...
though concealed
I knew something was wrong...
den obvious
obvious
I didn't know what to do...
I was too naive...

Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
...
Time seem to cover up the secrets left behind...

1st time i heard i thought nice song...
2nd time...nice..but sounds kinda sad...
3rd omgg i think this "Kristy" was raped...
cause u know secret, dress, innocence...
but den...i thought maybe something deeper...
haha so i decided to write it down...lol

Exhausted...

I'm so exhausted...
I understand why you are mad at me now...
I told u...
If I could do it all over again I would...
Lied so you would be happy...
I accept the fact that your mad...
By all means...if that is the reason ur mad...
continue...because I did it coz I thought it was right and I still do...
I just want my friends to be happi...
It wasn't like I was in love wid him so to me it was like whatever...
But I didn't realize you felt so strongly about it...
I'm sorry...
I felt kinda hurt tht u still din talk to me in school...
but if you don't want to den it's fine...
I dunwan to force anyone...
Especially after what YR said abt beating me...
Honestly...
I meant it if she does...I'll sue...
but if u wanna beat me YR...
can try to break my nose...
would be nice if I could get a new one...haha
...
Anyways this post ain't coz of tht...
it's a rant post...
I'm gonna rant about everything...
My piano exams are coming...
I hate it!!
No one told me I had to take exams...
No one asked me if I wanted to...
My teacher just told my mom and she said yes...
No one consulted me...
dammit!!
I dunwan to take exams...
Not now...
I wanna have some fun now...
Or at least be able to study whenever I want to...
Not at certain times only because I have other stuff to do...
eg. Practice piano...
I wanna have some form of freedom...
I mean...
Helloooo??? wad does she mean grounded????
I'm 16...not 5!!
So what if I failed 2 subjects...
It's not like I got 9Gs for all the subjects...
arghhhhhhhh...
I wanna just ask her to ask me first before she starts doing things...
So pissed off!!!
I mean like today...
I want to stay home and do hw...
nooooo...
have to go to that stupid class...
WTFF!!...
leave me be la for gods sake...
Tuition only ma...
Don't go once cannot meh??
it's not like I don't go to school...==

To everyone from d gang...i know u dunwan to read but please read...

Dear Everyone...
lets start from Alicia...
I'm sorry for jumping to conclusions about the Eric thing...
It's not ur fault...sorri...
If u dunwan to forgive me okay...
I just wanted to say so I would feel better...
Um...Yin Ru...
Sorri I snapped in d cbox...
just came home phone fixing...bad mood...
and fine if u dun forgive me I just wanted to say...
Okay Emily...
the longest and hardest to say to...
I didn't mean to shoot you and Alicia in d 1st post...
I was just blasting...
I clicked d wrong new post thing so I din know it was d public...(I also forgot (again) tht ur not in my private blog dii)
When my friend told me tht she saw Alicia respond to it only did I realize...
I know hard to believe...but wtv la...
Emily...
Yin Ru said I know y u guys hate me...
but honestly I don't...
So anyways...
I talked to Jian just now...
He scolded me...
he said I should be ashamed...
That d reason u guys hate me is coz of my attitude...
That he warned me before...
I fought back...
I said tht it's abt the I should be his gf thingy...
we continued den he dunwan to be involved...
I went up to my room and started thinking...
so I came up with this post...
This is from my point of view since I intro Jian to Alicia...
...
I liked Jian...so I intro him to Alicia...
U were damn emo at that time...
Jian was kinda friendless...
Jian was also fun and I was out of Ideas how to cheer u up...
So I intro Jian to u...
den before I can tell u I like him...
U told me u like him...
I make myself not like him coz at tht time I loved u too much...
I know I sound like I'm so good...
Actually I was being selfish...I know u wouldn't like it...
But I was scared u won't like me after tht...
Den I told ally abt it...
She told u...
I lied...
I told you I din like him anymore...
I became a bitch and said ally shouldn't have told u...and made it her fault...(sorry)
Jian was right...I did lie...
but I convinced myself I dun like him anymore...
And eventually I didn't...
I asked him to kao u...
Coz he told me he liked u as well...
Everything went well...
Until I started feeling lonely...
I wanted to tell u things...
But U were always so happi telling things abt u and Jian so I didn't...
I wanted to tell Jian...
But he was always nagging at me...
plus I thought tht he might tell u and u might feel bad...(u can be vy emotional...)
I told Yin Ru and Cindel I regret intro-ing u two...
Because I was jealous...
I got no Emily and no Jian...
And it's my fault coz I intro dem...
Ltr when I got over it...
Alicia got mad at me...
I still don't know y actually...
U told me alot of things but I didn't understand...Sorry...
Den suddenly u got angry as well...
I didn't understand...I was confused...
I tot u were angry for d same reason as Alicia...
I tried to ignore but I finally cannot...
So I tried to find out...den Yin Ru oso got mad...
After a looooong time Yin Ru finally talk to me again...
i was happi...
But tht time during PJ Wen Wei dey all ask Y i not close to u dii...
Ma I say lor...
I dunno Emily suddenly only dun choi me...
I try asking Cin...but nobody wanna tell me...
So Doline thought she was helping me...
and she asked u guys...
I didn't want he to ask de actually coz everything was just getting better...
But den when she told me what u said I got reaaaaaally angry...
Coz I know I didn't say anything like that...(Sorry if u get mad at this part but continue reading pls)
I came home and blast!...
I din realize until everyone was shooting at me...
So I also shoot back as defense...
So now I'm gonna ask u for one very very big favour...
Emily can u please please please tell me tht d reason u hate me is because of my horrible attitude...
not what I apparently said...
because I cannot accept it...
I would never want to be Jians gf...
Actually dere was one time...
I told Jian when I was drunk...
D next day I remembered what I said but I din wanna admit so I said I dun remember...
I told him Imma horrible gf...
I like him so I dunwan to hoi him...hahaha
lame rite??...
amyways I know it's a big favour but if u have EVER thought of me as ur friend...
please just say d reason u hate me has nothing to do with dat...
dat d reason u hate me is because of my attitude, or my stupidity...
Or if u feel imma whore...
just please please please don't say it's because of d Jian thing...
because I wouldn't say that...
I know it would make u hate me...
and I wouldn't make u hate me on purpose...
Dats it...
If u don't want to accept...den Okay...
but thanks for reading...
...

thats it... believe dun believe ur choice...
after this...
I can smile and mean it...

p.s. do what you have to do...make everyone hate me...as long as I know what I have done...