Regrets

There are ALOT of things I regret doing in life...
Alot that I wish I can take back...
Unfortunately...I can't...
I regret hurting telling Cammie so late about the incident...
Changing our relationship forever...
I regret rejecting "him" and hurting him in the process...
Making our current friendship awkward and distant...
I regret being nice to some people that don't deserve it...
Thus, hurting my own pride and emotions...
I regret giving "him" a chance...
Because it was another chance to hurt me...
I regret not telling "him"...
Because I will never have another chance...
I regret telling "him"...
Cause now I'm being blackmailed...
BUT!!
There are also somethings I DON'T regret...
One of which is posting that post in my second blog...
Yes, it was a breath of fresh air...
after the nine years of knowing her corruption...
but saying nothing about it...
So Hate me...I don't care...
Cause now I have ANOTHER reason to live...
ANOTHER reason to love my life, myself.

DAVID ARCHULETA!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHH!!!!I'M SOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!
I was sooo emo yesterday because I couldn't get through flyfm for the David Archuleta tickets...
But I still continued sms-ing Hitz.fm to try and win...
But I thought...Sure cannot de laaa...my luck soo bad...
Den when I came home today...
I saw I had 4 miss calls from my friend Jianny (a.k.a my hunnii's bf ;D)...
I was gonna call him back...but I was soooo emo I forgot...lol
Den I recieved an sms from him...it said...
"Hey i have 2 showcase passes to david's concert...you want?"
And that is word by word...
So I called him and he told me again...
Den I started screaming...xD
So happi maaaan...
So of course I call my friends 1st laaa...
den when Michelle happi happi with me...
made plans dii...I started calming down...
Den When I was watching "The Brink of Law"...
I got a call...
D guy asked...is this 0163803558???
and i said yeaaaa...
den he asked hu am i speaking to??
So I said Sarah...
Den he said okay Sarah I'm Jin from HITZ.FM...Have U join any competition lately??
So I said yeaa I did...D sms REally fast thinggyy...xD
And he said okayyy den Sarah...YOU ARE GONNA SEE DAVID ARCHULETA TMR!!
And I was like..."..." totally stunned maaan...den i said really softly..."omg omg thx thx thxx"
So he's like Okay Im gonna need your full name and ur IC number...
so I told him
and he asked me u know where is sunway amphitheater so im like yeaa...
and he said U HAVE to go get ur tickets between 2 - 3pm
go look for the hitz.fm cruisers and show dem ur ic den u can get ur tickets...
den i said..."okok thx thx thxxxxx"
den he hung up...OMG SO HAPPI WEIII!!!!
I started screaming again...den I called joyenn and cindel den dey both agreed to go...
So tmr we're gonna see DAVID ARCHULETA YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
okayy gonna rest now...so can wake up early tmr and collect tie tickets frm jianny^^
nitessss

Sorry

I'm sorry for what I did...
I'm sorry for what I said...
I'm sorry that I told you...
But I do not regret it...

I know it sounds horrible...
And it is...
I know there's no excuse...
But I feel I did the right thing...

If I didn't do it...
Then I would've done something worse...
So...I'm sorry...
But yet I'm not...

Sorry Cam...I didn't mean to hurt u...
I knew it would...but it's for our good...

fed up

I seriously fed up with life already...
I'm just waiting to die now...
I feel like everything I do and everything I've ever done is pointless...
I've cried and sucked it in...
I've put up a big smile for everyone around me...
I've listen when I was needed to listen...
And I've cared for when care was needed...
But everything I've done doesn't matter...
Because the only thing to matters is her...
No matter if she's at fault or I am...
I'm always the one to blame...
Am I easy to blame?? Is that y??
She places all her faults unto me...
And she keeps saying she's weak and is always the victim...
But she keeps victimizing me...
Her convincing act that she had her whole life to practice on...
Even my friends turn on me...
She comes to me when she needs help...
And also comes to me when she needs a scapegoat...
Is this the price I wonder...
When you try to care for ppl...
When u try to be selfless...
Because if it is...
Den I guess to spare myself from the pain I need to be selfish...
But is it really worth it??
I dunno anymore I'm fed up with everything...
I wanna work things out...
But if things keep going wrong...
Den whats the point of working things out...
So u can have bits and pieces of happiness??
But one BIG lump of unhappiness??
I sometimes wonder...
That maybe if I was a little bit selfish...
Would things actually be better??...
Ally told me to think about myself as well as others...
Coz recently I've been emo-ing by myself...
so after she told me that I started complaining about myself...
But they don't seem to like it...
Dey get moody when I tell dem...
Like I shouldn't tell them these things...
Like I should be told of these things instead of telling dem...
So I complain more to this guy fren...
But wad did i expect from sumone like him...
Of course he'd side dem as well...
I should change dey all say
but everytime i do dey change dey're mind as well...
I don't know wad to do anymore...
Change for the better...
Stop complaining about everything...
Don't be so negative...
Ok I try...
I complain less...
Try to be by myself so I won't complain as much...
I get moody when im not noticing ppl around...
and get emo...
my mood changes and dey dun like it...
I try and fake a smile dey're happi...
so i continue...
but then dey complain I dun tell dem anything...
What am I supposed to do in this situation??...
NOTHING...absolutely nothing...
jz let it continue...
Until one day I snap...
Dat day is today...
I've snapped and I'm gonna do what I want from now on...
I'm sorri If this post offends some people...
But I can't help it...
If I don't say it here...
Den I'll feel horrible...
And if u really think I'm ur fren u wouldn't mind...
So yea...dats it...
If u wanna think of it as me crapping...
Then by all means do...
I don't care...

Fed Up and Confused...
Sarah

p.s. Thx Charles only you can cheer me up so fast...

Everything...Nothing...Crapp...Randomssss

QUOTE OF THE DAYYY
LIVE EVERYDAY LIKE UR GONNA DIE TMR...

Ahhh Im soooo Lazy to Bloggg...
But Im too Bored not tooooo...
IShhhhh...

JOSHIIIEEEE, KAH EEEE, STEPHHHH, ALLYYYYY...
UPLOAD THE PICTUREESSS!!!!!...
AKU NAKK BLOG!!!...lol

hmmm anywaysss...
I've decided to get over THAT GUY...
well my beloveds know hu...

Um um um...
Sien laaaaa...
Hunnii isn't on9
Mammii isn't on9
Darll isn't on9
Dann is AFK
Mac & Cheese is AFK
Regg is DOTA-ing
"HE" is Busy...=(
and I can't talk to "him"..u knowww incase...><
Jian Jian also isn't on9...damn him...my last chance of entertainment...!!!!
And the list goes oooooooon...~~
aiih sien sien sieeeeen...

Najib has no neck...hahaha
lol random...

Tmr Badawi is going BYE BYE...
LOLLL...

Tmr Im gonna diiiieee...x(

Lets go dancing babehssssssss...
GAAAAHH IM BORED!!!!!

Saturday going Midvalley!!!...YAY!!
Unfortunately it has to be educational...awwww=(
And we have to be in skul uniform...T.T...

Im sms-ing random ppl...
forcing dem to come on9...
I either get ignored...
Or get these kinda replies...

(sms)

me:
Hiiiiii Can come on9???
pleeeeeeeaaaaaase

random person 1:
no...

random person 2:
bz...

random person 3:
later laaaaa...

random person 4:
en okayy...

(msn)

me:
Yayy ur on!!

random person 4:
yea...so how r u??

me:
fine...bla bla bla

bla bla bla...3 minutes later...

random person 4:
eh i gtg bye...*offline*

random person 5:
okok...

me (10 minutes later):
ehhh u say come on9??...

(sms)

me:
Hiiiiii Can come on9???
pleeeeeeeaaaaaase

random person 5:
izzit???O.O
Sorry ahh
I forgot...

me:
==

Aiih...feeling so neglected niaaaa...
hmmmm...i feel so unloved...=(

Wahhh today in skul so paiseh weiiii
I slept at 3 last nite u c...
So what happened was...
dey had d perbahasan thingyy...
and I was listening...honest!!
den I got sleepy...damnn i was sleepy...
so I fell asleep...lol
summore sit infront lehhh
den den after d perbahasan...
d damn hamimy go call me name...T.T
she saw me sleeping damnnn!!!!!!!!!
ishhh...so go out ma maluu lorrrrr...T.T...aiiiiih

Empty

Im feeling very empty...
I've decided I need a Boyfriend...
And a REAL 1...not a boy toy...
So yea...
Im gonna stay clean and serious frm now...
So dun stick too close to mme if ur not planning to be committed guys...
Ummm and den dere's d matter about THIS particular guy...
Umm Im sorry but I cannot accept it...
Sorry...I know Ur committed but Im sorry I really cannot...
Um and well dats it...
I dunno wad to write dii...
Today went to Pappa Rich with my friends...
Food's OOOOOKAAY LAAAAA...Drinks was guuuud...
But the price was EVEN NICER!!...lolss
anyhowss...had fun am home...
so yeah...dats abt it...